what would you do ?
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Every day I wake up to go to school so I can get yelled at by coaches,staff,even students. I feel that if just disappeared, no-one would care because to them, I’m just some random goat they yell at.
My friends.. Before.. They were all I had and what made me stay.
But they saw how people began to hate me.. And decided they didn’t want to be seen with me.. So they all left.
Now I’m here, still depressed.
All alone.
Friendless.
Feeling so useless to the world.
I mean, why live anymore??
No reason anymore.
If anyone can help me get grand canyon or any deserted place like an isle unhabitated or desert  just leave me there i wanna sit and wait to die … or even the amazon .. i don’t have places like this in my country..
Right time period for suicide is before my parents die
At least I will be sure that someone is there to cry and finish the formalities. Except that, I see zero benefits of living life.
life : 1 to 15 —-&—- 15 to 30 —-&——- 30 to *
1 to 15 years: beneficiaries are parents (enjoy the kids innocence, dominate them in the name of guiding them, abuse them, teach them carp)
15 to 30 years: beneficiary is rest of the world. World baits them with money & fame.
Let them work very hard to innovate, create a company or new product or work hard in a company.
In reality with […]
Hi.
I started writing down my feelings in  journal but I thought it would be nice to share with people finally.
I don’t know it all started but what I know is that I’m messed up. My family, my body, my mind, and my emotions. I’m not going to say I’m in this emotionless trance.
I still have friends but I hid my true feelings. It’s all starts with my family and how my mother is this fucked up parent. You can basically say I live by myself , but my dads the only one who supports me. He has to work all the time and my mom […]
First of all respect for the people who got to roam this site. I myself did it for more than one year. Sometimes I tried giving advices, yet it s hard to interfere with other people s thoughts, so for the most time I refrained from doing so. I can say I succeeded to prolong someone s life here, with one week. Yes only one week. I cried when that person gave up. I cried as much as when I lost my mother. Our lives cannot be lived in reverse and unfortunately many people are going backwards instead of moving forward. It is the mind […]
Hi Guys,
Sorry for the late notice… But I am disconnecting from the world to go Dog Sledding. 😀 So I will NOT be post today or tomorrow. I will post Sunday though. Have a good weekend!!! And don’t worry about me! 😀
I’m not suicidal, just incredibly bored with life. I think that I’ve played too many video games, watched too many movies, cartoons throughout my life that I expect grand things out of reality. But as we all know, things are pretty mundane on planet Earth(save for wars and terrorist attacks; those are always good for a laugh).
Things are pretty sucky in my life right now. I’m living with an ex-girlfriend that my ego is still very much attached too. She’s an annoying **** but I enjoyed the sex, and like I said, she really knew how to stroke my ego and make me feel […]
I’m tired of people saying that they understand my situation that I should just get over it. I’m sorry my unhappiness is bothering you, would you like me to leave? Like holy shit. I get it I may be a downer but back the fuck up and revaluate yourself, you aren’t little miss perfect either. I make mistakes, I do stupid things I’m human just like you and the rest of this world.
Its been some time since my last post, maybe a week maybe two. Time has been slipping past so fast I barely even notice it. It still is the same grey world but now there is something different about it. I gave myself a fighting chance. After I had posted I felt a small relief on myself my story was out somewhere and none judged it, instead they offered support and wishes for well being. Thats when I decided upon something.
I will make a stand for who I am and what I want. I refuse to beaten and pummeled by something that is not even […]
People tell you to not kill yourself and they give you every fucking reason to do it. How’s about it’s my life and I will deal however I feel like I can to get over the pain. Someone hurts you and then tells you how to deal? That’s just bullshit. I believe if you don’t want to go through pain, you shouldn’t cause it in the first place. You can’t call yourself a good person and then go around using people. I never thought a piece of ass was so damn worth hurting someone over. Or money for that matter. I always thought that as […]
Even if I got all the powers in the world
I still feel depressed and addicted to suicide with no reason
and let it be the death of us. i want to go sky diving and just leave this world that way, at least it’d be exciting for the majority of the time.
so many
secrets
to keep
that i cant
tell anyone
so many
secrets
i have
that i
have to
keep
and hide
from the world
so many secrets
how
can i cope?
i don’t cope
that’s the
thing
i just let it go…
 THUS SPOKE ZARATHUSTRA
THE FLIES IN THE MARKET-PLACE
Flee, my friend, into your solitude! I see you deafened with the noise of the great men, and stung all over with the stings of the little ones.
Admirably do forest and rock know how to be silent with you. Resemble again the tree which you love, the broad-branched one – silently and attentively it overhangs the sea.
Where solitude ends, there begins the market-place; and where the market-place begins, there begins also the noise of the great actors, and the buzzing of the poison-flies.
In the world even the best things are worthless without those who represent them: those showmen, the […]
It never ceases to amaze me just how cruel and insane the world can be.
People will just build you up and then blow you up for their own enjoyment. So many people have hated me my entire life. I have noting left to look forward to in life. this is driving me insane! I just wish I could be a different person and experience what’s it’s like to have a family, friends, and a girlfriend. I never will get to experience any of those things Why keep this suffering going?
I remember when I was a very little girl, our house caught on fire.
I’ll never forget the look on my father’s face as he gathered me up
in his arms and raced through the burning building out to the pavement.
I stood there shivering in my pajamas and watched the whole world go up in flames.
And when it was all over I said to myself, “Is that all there is to a fire?”
Is that all there is, is that all there is
If that’s all there is my friends, then let’s keep dancing
Let’s break out the booze and have a ball
If […]
In the world of gaming, especially for the RPGs, you get to erase your character if you fucked up your character build.
I think it’s the same here. I’ve been living wrongly and I don’t see any patch is going to happen to save it so I wanna erase my character.
The only difference is there’s no ‘start new game’ feature here but even if there was, I don’t think I’m willing to start it all over again.
Everything was dull. Clouds hung over my head no matter how brightly the sun shone. I had to resist the nearly uncontrollable urge to fall flat on the ground, curl up into the grey hoodie I had been wearing for days, and cry. It pained me to smile. I was going through one of the worst bouts of major depression I have ever endured.
I fell into a rabbit hole, and theories, disorders, and research, along with a whole lot of blurry and blank areas was my wonderland. I ached to know more. I needed to know as much as I possibly could know about […]