We are the misfit toys, and this site is our Island of Misfit Toys. Maybe we can find the right tools here. Maybe we can find the right connections, or maybe we are kidding ourselves. I was too scared to go to work sober today. I am too scared to do anything sober really. I have to escape. The reality of it all is just a little more than I can bare. I hate feeling that way… helpless. How did I let this happen? I was always so careful.
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It’s funny I’ve seen someone else call us the land of misfit toys. What is your substance of choice? Have you ever thought of getting help for it?
Whatever is readily available I guess. I love Scotch lol, but I usually drink a lot of alcohol and take meds. I tried to get help, but I just can’t seem to commit. Also, I dont trust anyone else enough to let them give me advice lol, so it is kind of a vicious cycle.
no worries; I haven’t gone to work sober in 2+ years and they keep giving me raises and more responsibilities. It’s so funny(not in the haha way) but I came online tonight to write something about how fucked up this whole cycle is.
Its like office space where he does less work and gets a raise. My boss is an alcoholic so yea apparently alcoholism is the way to move up in the world but I don’t think Its good for your health. Mental or physical.
Haha stupid responsibilities. The parallelism between my responsibilities and my flask makes me laugh. As the liquid in my flask dissappears, so do my responsibilities 😛
Surprisingly enough good health is not at the top of my priority list lol
all the execs at my last office were on liquid lunches. Despite what AA will tell you, substance abuse can be controlled, but it takes the right personality. It’s about first acknowledging that you’re using this substance to stop feeling pain, just like people do with “medicine”. Getting your brain into that kind of thinking is paramount as it subconsciously justifies everything you do. Some people confront their pain; others bury it and move on with their lives. After that, it’s just about knowing your limits and covering your tracks.
Think about this: Coffee is praised and known as the productive workers best friend, and for good reason. The energy boost from it is amazing and the side effects are minimal, if you don’t abuse it. Thing is though, not everyone drinks coffee. Personally, I love the taste and effect but my body can’t handle it so I don’t have it at all anymore. I get nausea, stomach cramps and serious jitters from even a small cup. Point is, not everyone is affected the same way.
Alcohol, if you don’t abuse it, can be a great friend as well. As we know from my previous example, not everyone is affected the same way. Just like I can inhale a bong bowl of kush on my own and maintain self control while acting with more sense than the average man, so can some drinkers.
Mmmm a bowl of delicious sweet danky dank, and a glass of Johnny Walker Black Label sounds delicious right now.
Maybe I should have worked less then.
Working a lot and getting accolades and awards sure did not fatten my wallet.
I actually got paid less for being a star employee.
Eh… doesn’t matter anymore anyway.
Soon i’ll be free of this crap.