Im in college and I hate my life

Yes, I am in college. But, I still want to commit suicide.

I have no life and no friends. I have no job, and I was raised with a silver spoon in my mouth, per se. But now, the spoon is out of my mouth because of the unfortunate situation of my mom losing her job that she loves permanently. That job of my mom made myself not care about my spending and my lifestyle. I do not do ANYTHING beneficial to my life, and now all of my family is disappointed of me. I wish I was raised strictly, like getting a job as soon as I was legal to get one so I can appreciate the value of money. I just started to realize that now that I am in college, with no money to pay for it.
Even when (or if) I graduate, I have no confidence in life to stand out of the real world. I am watching golden gate bridge suicide videous, and I am telling myself that I should be the person jumping down. I think they are now happy because they don’t have to worry about his/her own life or someone else’s. I WISH I WAS THAT PERSON.

I do not know what the future holds for me. No matter how successful or unsuccessful I will become, I promised to myself that I will give my physical life away no questions asked. Only if I can give my body and life to someone who desperately needs it, I will in a heartbeat.