I woke up from a nap and refreshed my page on the site and google blocked it, I was using Google Chrome but just to get on here I’m using Internet Explorer. Is anyone else having this problem?
June 2013
Can I have some advice on how to tell a friend I have self harmed, and had depression?
I have tried before, in person and online, but one person ignored me and the other time I physically couldn’t get my words out. I have severe anxiety and have literally never talked to a single soul about troubles in my life willingly.
It is now, as I’m really trying to recover, that I think I can, and should talk to my closest friend. Thanks.
I am just going to start from the beginning. I was asked out by this guy he was white and I am black… The majority of his family was well.. racist. In the beginning of our relationship he was talking to other girls and saying that he loved them. I caught him and he said that because we were living together that I was the one he loved. I found some stuff on face book too. I got angry and told him I was deleting it and did. He also had problems with his money. He was a manager and made more money than me […]
Word of warning: Ambien, especially Ambien CR has the potential side effect of severe depression. If you are taking it and feel almost as if a best friend has just died, STOP taking it and contact a doctor. If said doctor instead puts you on Wellbutrin for depression, and you notice worsening panic attacks, STOP taking Wellbutrin and contact a doctor. If your doctor instead puts you on Zoloft for anxiety and panic attacks, and your heart has increasing problems or your insomnia is worse (resulting in more Ambien, then resulting in higher does of Wellbutrin) STOP taking Zoloft and go to a doctor. zOMG […]
I’m feeling rushed. I made a goal of killing myself before Christmas, and it seemed like a good date. But every other day or so, I get this feeling of anxiety that’s scaring me. It’s making me feel like I’m going to die before I’m ready for it. It’s really a mix of anxiety and fear.
My stepdad got a .44 caliber and I’ve been listening to what he says. I think it’s in a locked drawer in his room.
How do I tell my camp room mate i need bandaids because I’m trying to patch my self back up. How do I tell her I’m telling depressed without having to look like I’m being needy.
I’ve been reflecting on the past few years of my childhood and I felt like I could have done more as in take chances instead of sitting here waiting for things to happen and now I’ve seen how much time has gone by it kind of makes me sad because I feel like I wasted it somehow, even though I have been trying it hasn’t felt right . I think at some point in everyone’s life they think they can mess around and opportunities will always be right there waiting for them and what they forget is that it could never comeback ,I don’t think […]
Whats’s there to even say about me anymore? What’s the point in saying it. I am now a 19 year old male who has been in a severe state of depression for 6-7 (if not more) years. I hate reading the cliche sayings by depressed people, who just doesn’t know how to express what they feel, but I find myself using those same exact ones. I’m so overwhelmed just in writing this, that I have no idea where to begin… I guess I’ll tell a little of my story.
Well… I was raised by parents who believe/d in a rather extreme form of evangelical-charismatic christianity. Looking […]
I know things will get better.
I know I can be happy.
I know,my star can shine.
I know I don’t have the heaviest burden to lift.
I know that my wishes can come true.
Anyway I wanna die,it doesn’t make sense but I’m really going to kill myself,no matter what people will say or think.
They think I have problems and struggles,in fact I have problems but they aren’t enough to make me wanna die.I dunno why I want it,but I don’t have mental problems.I’m tired of hear people say that I’m fucking crazy.
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So tired, so ready to go, so wanting to leave the world I hate behind, escape its evil and pain and cruelty. Yet so afraid of what I will find on the other side, so afraid to exchange a temporary hell (no matter how long and painful) for a permanent one. Â And so I end up staying in the pain I know, seemingly mocked forever as the nerd, the nothing, the loser, a complete failure in everyone’s eyes including my own. Â I want to die but am afraid to, want to end my pain but am afraid it will just follow me. Â Yet I know […]
Hey it’s been awhile since I’ve posted anything, life has been ok but I still sit around the house on days when no ones home and cry. Still so concentrated on suicide that it takes up about half my day and its still hard to find a reason to get out of bed in the morning, I really don’t know why I’m still living but I have made myself a promise to not kill myself till I’m 25. Seeing that I’m about to be 19 in august it gives me 6 years to be sure that life is as bad as how I see it now I […]
I watched the movie “@Suicide Room”. That movie triggered a emotion in me, i couldn’t stop crying. So, i got on here and found this site. And i joined. I’ve tried suicide, I’ve cut. I’ve done a lot. Most i am not proud of. But, i am different. I a a freak. A weirdo. And this movie, truly touched me. I am going to start posting here, maybe it will release the stuff i like to hide. Or maybe i will just be ranting. Who knows..?
“I’m bleeding, Quietly living. I’m living, Quietly bleeding.”
Lets see where should i start? ok how about when i was little, all of my grandparents are dead and i know that is just life but right after my grandpa died in 2001 my dad died a month later. i was 11 and he was my whole life. I used to think about how he would walk me down the isle one day. i stayed up with him at night and watched westerns with him. i was his little girl and he was my daddy but i lost him and i feel like since then i have been waiting to see him again but […]
If God didn’t give me such bad genes and put me in a bad situation, I think I would have been a very awesome and badass person. I would be intelligent and I would have good tastes. I think I would be very happy if I could meet that version of myself. In a world not dictated by THIS GOD.
But of course. It’s GOD’s world. He fucks with all of us everyday and makes us INCOMPLETE AND BROKEN ANDÂ sometimes just plain wrong..
I understand the meaning to have a non boring universe but come on… this is just pathetic.. I think we are just controlled […]
For anyone who browses this forum to feel like they are not the only ones in the world with depression or suicidal feelings, here’s a lighthearted comic about depression that’s slightly humourous and mostly accurate: Hyperbole and a Half: Depression Part Two
Disclaimer: I realize many people on this forum come here very somber, looking for either support or suicide methods, and this might offend some readers. So I’m sorry if this post offends you. I was originally going to write about a (near) suicide attempt, but I hated my writing so I scrapped it. But yes, I […]
I have never cared about boys much, but there’s just this one that I can’t get out of my head. I hate him so much that I love him. It makes me sick. He’s horrible for me, he doesn’t give a shit about me I mean nothing to him, yet he means everything to me. I don’t know how this happened. I stayed my distance, I moved on was engaged. And then Mr.Wrong showed back up in my life and I quickly became a mess again. I hate this evil spell he has me under. I beat myself up inside because I don’t understand why […]
Well, I’m a lover, I am forever
Movin’ forward into outer space
And I’m a mountain, I am disaster
But who is countin’, we are on our way
So let your skin out and go and find out
What is the matter around the river bend
It is the question to the old answer
Can you leave me with the one I love
It’s official I’ve gone crazy. I know I have but I can’t find a solution. I want to die, but I can’t bring myself to do it. and the only person in this entire world that I love and want doesn’t want me.  what do I do now…
well except that I think a lot of drugs might be coming.