Trying to work through it all

First off, hello. I’ve lurked this forum for a while but never really thought to join until now. I’ve been feeling completely drained lately, as if just living my life has taken everything from me, and it has gotten to the point where all I can think about is what a failure I am.  My grades are starting to slip again after exerting so much effort to bring them up, my emotional state continues to deteriorate and my social anxiety has gotten so bad that, other than attending school and occasionally leaving the house to buy necessities, I’ve become a full blown shut in. I’ve become so afraid doing everything wrong that I’ve gotten to the point where I don’t do much of anything, which really isn’t helping at all.

Anyway, I started thinking that if I really have nothing to gain from continuing to live, then I don’t have much else to lose either (minus the rest of my sanity but let’s just ignore that for now), and for that reason, I’d like to reach out to the rest of you on this site. I figure, if I can connect with even one person, maybe I can make things better for the both of us. I won’t always have the best advice, nor will I always know the best thing to say. I can guarantee, however, I will hear you out without judgement should you choose to contact me, and that if you want, I will do my best to help you out, even if it’s just by letting you know that you have one more person rooting for you. If anyone reading this thinks they would benefit from discussing their situation with someone dealing with the same type of feelings, then please know that I am here for you. My email / Skype is jaydeekay77@hotmail.com, my tumblr is waitwhatwasidoingagain.tumblr.com. I wish you all the best.