There’s no point in living if you’re all alone with your thoughts and dreams and have no one to share in them.
There’s no point in living if you feel too much pain and suffering in a life that’s empty of anything worthwhile.
There’s no point in living if you see everyone around you are out enjoying their lives while you remain hidden.
There’s just no point in living;
I don’t want to look out of my eyes anymore and see the utter void that my life is.
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You want to know about utter void that would be my life. I’ve had a mental illness my whole life, and I fell into a very bad place and decided to be manic and rant and rave on the internet. Now I pissed off a lot of people and they are doing everything they can to see my life in ruins. Word on the street is now I’m a person of interest and the state is about to crucify me without mercy because they think I’m a psycho beyond redemption.
I broke utterly under what I’ve been dealing with. In my mania I truly meant well with a lot of my comments but they don’t care. I got made into an internet celeb and somehow images of me are floating around. I thought that was me being paranoid but it’s not. Due to the people I pissed off I wonder if I’ll ever see the light of day again. I wish before they crucify me I could sit down and speak to them, I know I am going to jail at this point but the sentence I expect them to give me for my manic rants is going to be ruthless and harsh.
I’ve been categorized as some wannabe domestic terrorist, even though committing violence is the last thing I’d ever do. A clever P.R campaign was waged against me portraying me as something much worse than I am. I’m just waiting for the hammer to fall at this point, I just pray they will consider having no prior criminal record into the equation. I’m scared though truth be told I’ve never been more so in my entire life.
I despite what I said am one of the most laid back non violent people on the planet and I am about to get thrown into a situation full of the most evil people on the planet for god knows how long. This all started because of some hackers hacking me and escalated into what it is today. I’ve been debating should I take my life or deal with it in the realm of the living.
I’m utterly alone besides for my family surrounded by a whole host of enemies and a state thinking I’m something I’m not. Your situation can’t be that bad, you actually have a chance to make it better, I’m about to get cast away into utter darkness for god knows how long. A pissed of state is a scary thing more terrifying than any goblin or ghoul.
I’m sorry about the situation you’re in and I hope things will work out for you somehow, you should certainly keep going but I understand the worry you feel with the uncertainty of the omnipotent state but you can’t predict the outcome. I don’t know what you said but people can be so unforgiving, even if the intention was well meant but you’re what matters now and no one deserves to die at their own hands for what they’ve written. I’m glad your family are there for you.
I could manage my problems but the last straw for me in an already miserable life comes with the migraines which appear each day and having to wait with a throbbing pain until my drugs work and clear it. They’ve started to occasionally re-appear after a few hours so my doctor wants to increase the dosage. It’s the fear that they’ll get worse; I’ll see what my doctor says next time I see him and take it from there, I have a few options left open to me but when they’re exhausted then so am I.
DC0001 are you on a mood stabilizer?
Nias you sound like me but what causes you to feel hopeless?
Things just never seem to work out for me, in love and in life and it seems easier not to continue. I have a job I hate and I’m sure people talk about me there, I suffer depression and I’m alone when people around me are happy and in love so I struggle to go out even though I know I have to. My health problems are a final nail in my coffin I’m afraid, if I was happy in life I’d put up with the discomfort but I’m not. I assume from your name Searching4Hope1982 you’re around 32 (please correct me), I’m 46 and tired of it all, why are you feeling like you do?