I have recurrent depression and am on antidepressants and in therapy. I am married but my husband has just left me in my own when he knows I am feeling very bad today I cannot face getting dressed/eating or answering the phone. I have just returned from a 10 day holiday which was lovely but now I am home I just want to end it I cannot go on with this illness anymore I cannot face going back to work, I have been off sick now for 10 weeks, I am not getting better. Why oh why won’t this hideous illness lift and give me my old self back, I am very very scared that my husband is going to leave me as I am making him so unhappy – I feel so very lonely I only have one friend and she does not understand my illness, my mother does not either, I am so lonely why did he leave. Me on own today when I really needed him, even though I understand he needs time out and I would stay in bed crying anyway , arghh this illness is so selfish, I want some peace ….
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Im sorry to hear about your illness, because it is an illness. I wish i could help you, i can barely help myself at times. I understand how you feel though, because i feel it too. If you ever need anyone to talk to, I’m here. I wont preach to you or anything, just an open mind and open ears to hear your story.
So sorry about what you’re going through. I’ve often wondered what the point of life was, and I don’t have any answers for you 🙁 But, we’re here if you need to talk. I know what it’s like being surrounded by people who don’t necessarily understand what you’re going through. Feel free to email me if you need someone to talk to.