Am I the only one who uses alcohol/pot to get through the day? I mean I know it’s not good in the long run, but in the moment it helps. I get to a point where I literally cannot bear the pain, it’s just too much, and I honestly feel that if I didn’t have to booze to wear me out and let me forget i would drive straight to the Golden Gate Bridge and jump. I feel like booze have saved my life a couple times this week, I just drink to the point where I don’t have the energy or motivation to hurt myself. Has anybody else had this experience? by the way this is my first post so if I’m doing anything wrong please let me know, but be gentile…I am fragile…that’s why I’m here.
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I dunno. Sometimes I feel like it helps, sometimes it seems like it intensifies things, which ultimately would have me off myself. Plus, when you’re taking antidepressants…
Personally, I don’t give a fuck if something’s bad for me. That fact that it is only draws me to it.
Same here, I recently stopped both because in my area beer/alcohol is expensive here. It’s a rural area. Smoking and drinking does help me out, quite a lot. Jumping off the Golden Gate Bridge is my goal, but I freeze, when I’m there and I hate how there’s a lot of people and you can’t jump, when you’re ready. Btw I live in the Northern Bay
Jumper, I live in SF, how was your trip to the bridge, I’ve been wanting to go myself, just to see. I hope your okay. Write me?
Haha, by no means are you the only one here, OP, who does this! I only wish alcohol agreed with me and I could seek this means of numbing the existential pain. Cannabis likewise.
Hey there and welcome, good first post, I also recently made my first post and of course you are doing nothing wrong and we are all sharing and hopefuly find some relief for our pain and suffering.
I honestly don’t know if the alchehol/pot will help in the long run, I once knew a guy who did the same and I believe for him it helped in the moment also, but he got addicted pretty badly and needed more and more to escape reality.
As for me I find relief of my pain and sadness by trying to help other people and reading the Bible and to ‘escape’ to my own world (I am slightly autistic, for me it is more easy to cut ties with reality and be in my fantasy world). If you would like to talk about your pain just leave me a message. You are not alone in this nightmare. God Bless you and I hope you feel better soon.
Im at The Golden Gate Bridge right now
What are you planning Jumper97, please don’t jump, I know you’ve been there before, please keep talking.
Thank you all so so much for taking the time to comment on my post, it has been really nice reading your comments. I came to see my family (who are all sober alcoholics) and have had to put the breaks on the drinking/smoking. But just got away to smoke a spliff in my car, finally a feel a tad bit of relief, the depression has been so intense. Hope you guys had a good halloween.