I am wondering if there is a link between Asperger’s and autoerotic asphyxia? Considering that AEA is not talked about nearly often enough, it is difficult and frustrating to come up with a determination? I get a feeling that a high percentage of people who have died from AEA had Asperger’s or were on the autism spectrum? Based on their profile, they were creative and had rather high IQs.
Even though a lot of people who are into AEA have Asperger’s, there are very few people with Asperger’s who are into AEA, however many people with Asperger’s feel awkward in social situations, have a difficult time at making friends and many of them never get to experience falling in love with someone! Although very few people with Asperger’s end up getting into AEA, there are many other serious problems that are manifested with their lives after feeling like a misfit and misunderstood. I am lucky enough to have the one close friend that I do have, but I have given up hope that I will ever get to fall in love with anyone! I don’t get along with people very easily and I’m not even sure if I would want to fall in love with anyone! I only feel comfortable with real alternative people and there are so few of them! I feel so awkward when I am around people and I get hurt and upset very easily! I only feel comfort at the thought of ending my life, in which I feel that I will be taken to a world where I can feel loved accepted and understood as I often feel that I am on the wrong planet!
As for love, I know that there are people who care about me, but it is not enough for me to want to continue to live any longer! My parents loved me and I do believe that, but they sure had a weird way of showing it along with how often they criticized me, treated me like shit and tried to pressure me into becoming a conformist. The good news is they were very unsuccessful with causing me to become a conformist! Even if people care about me, the thought of death gives me a calm feeling of joy as I will be taken to that world in which I am not loved, accepted and understood, but I can feel so safe! I know that there are a few people who care about me (very few!), and I have an extremely whacked out personality and I hurt very easily, but I have handled that much better in recent years by losing my temper, instead! With what I have mentioned in my previous posts, I wonder if I could be bipolar? I have similar symptoms to bipolar because there are times I want to fight to survive this, while at other times, I want to die from this, so I will be taken to a better world. I was diagnosed with major depression and that’s without saying anything about AEA! As for Asperger’s and if I had a choice to have it or not to have it, I would choose to have it! I would rather be unique, than a stupid brain dead conformist, which is what most people are! I don’t just have Asperger’s, but I have Asperger’s on steroids! Besides AEA, I hope to talk to other people about Asperger’s, as well.
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ey there’s a chance you can fall in love, i have aspergers and i meant a girl, and, after about a month i can have real conversations with her and only feel KIND OF awkward. i think i’m in love tho, but then again she’s putting a lot of work into this friendship or whatever entropy this is.
Have you ever considered that your attraction to AEA may be caused by your desire to find “a world where I [you] can feel loved accepted”?
Aspie in the house, woo. Aspies communicate and behave in a different ways than regular people. I noticed you used a lot of exclamation marks which most people don’t do. You have unique sentences (“The good news is they were very unsuccessful with causing me to become a conformist,” “I only feel comfortable with real alternative people and there are so few of them!”), and you are interested in a unique activity (AEA).
I’m willing to bet you value stuff like individualism, solitude, and reflection. Maybe you have no real issues with being alone. Maybe you would like a serious relationship but you doubt there’s someone out there specifically for you. You like the thought of ending your life because you feel as if you don’t belong here or like no one understands you.
You said quote “I would rather be unique, than a stupid brain dead conformist, which is what most people are!”
Deep down I believe you wish you were like most people; you wish you could fit in with the crowd and be accepted for who you are. But that’s hard.
I really want to challenge you to try being a conformist for a year. Like literally stop being unique and try to act and talk like everyone else. Avoid using pedantic language (i.e. big words), stop using exclamation marks, try to quit doing AEA, and just do the boring, everyday things regular people do. The rule of thumb is if the coolest person on Earth wouldn’t say or do it, then you shouldn’t either.
uhhhh…i would just say no, but i think something more along the lines of ‘hell no’ is more succinct in this case….i subscribe to the belief that it’s none of my buissiness what grown folk do behind closed doors, therefor, i have no opinion on aea, but i can promise u the 2 are not related…..i’m no medical professsional, but my son has aspergers……verry verrry lite aspergers….he’s skipped a grade, n he’s a bit sociallly akward, but i’ve put in some REAL effort making sure he has REAL friends….that he can somewhat relate to……only one of his friends goes to his school, n he’s in 8th so they never see each other, so it takes alot of time to do this for him……i’ve never lied to him about it, he knows he’s diffrent, so does his peers, but i’ve taught him to embrace this, and he feels purtty great about who he is, sometimes to a fault……i would encourage u to do the same……i know what ur thinkin, alot easier said than done, my son on his own wouldnt even know the 1st place to start…..so maybe try n find others with aspergers…..talking to someone of the opposite sex hat u find attractive is HARD for everyone…fuck, sexuality on the whole is hard for everbody…..ur not alone on this one, so try not 2 b so hard on yerself….homefry;)
you honestly sound like the best mom ever
Hey. My bro has Asperger and living with him drives me crazy sometimes.
I don’t know how old you are, but my father who’s 47 and has Asperger too is a successful technician and has a lot of friends. It took him years to achieve it but he didn’t give up. And he had really fucked up life.
If he could, I’m pretty sure you can too.
I have Aspergers and I don’t know if there is a connection between the two. I can tell you I don’t have it but I also wouldn’t judge anyone who does. As far as your depression I know how you feel I’m in that exact place right now except I have trouble accepting my differences cause I want to be like everyone else. I don’t know how to help you hell I need to help myself before I can help anyone else. One thing I do know is that you do stand a chance at love if you want it. It’ll be hard and some people will take advantage of your feelings. But I’ve had 3 girlfriends 2 who never really liked me and just used me and hurt me more than anyone else. The other girlfriend I had was kind and understanding and never forced me to do things I wasn’t comfortable with. It did end eventually but it left me with the hope that there is someone out there if you are willing to go through a lot of pain to find them.