Been depressed for years and i have a bad drink problem thats started affecting my health i have severe liver damage ive got a lot worse feeling low the last few months not because of my health problems im just not even interested in anything anymore in the past ive always talked my self out ended it all for what it would do to my parents but lately ive just thought if i do it and get it over and done with then its done. i cant imagine what im going to put my parents through if i carry on drinking and been honest i cant see my self stopping so its a catch 22 situation, health problems aside i just dont want life anymore im so unhappy even getting drunk doesnt numb me any more
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Don’t know much about drinking, but I know a little about depression. It can be overwhelming and debilitating. As I’m getting closer to the end, I also worry about my parents and how it will affect them. I saw how distraught they were after my halfhearted attempt a few months ago.
But they have also had to live with the fear and anticipation of the inevitable outcome. While they mostly believe that I will “get better” somehow, maybe by a miracle, I’m sure that a small part of them realizes that I won’t be able to go on much longer.
Either way, they will be completely and utterly devastated. And that weighs heavily on my heart and soul. I don’t want to hurt them, but I can’t simply go on in this condition simply because they want me to. It’s selfish on both sides, I know. But in the end, it’s my decision to make.