I am so sick and tired of this life. Everyday is like Groundhog Day. When I wake up i wonder why only to find out that my life Sucks!!! I am soo depressed, anxious, stressed out by the littlest things and my solution to these symptoms is to drink and drug. I know many other coping skills but none work for me. I have attempted suicide many times and cant even get that right. Suicide is on my mind daily and I think i am going to try a more violent method next time. I want to do it June 11th the day before my birthday, that’s if i can keep from being sectioned (hospitalized) before then.
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Hey D&D, I saw you also planned it last year on your birthday, why your birthday? Also did you get that job in the Cape? (Do you mean Cape Town?) did you turn to drugs and alcohol or you are just feeling like you need to? Hope we can help x
see below. i cant even do this correct!
BadYear, thanks for commenting! You ask why my Birthday… because my best friend died in a motorcycle accident on June 11th 1989. also i have 2 different birth certificates one for June 11th and another June 12th. not sure which one is correct, neither does my Mom. so Its always been a time of confusion and sadness for me. No job on the Cape ( Cod), i havent worked in over 2 years now. Alcohol and drugs have ruined my life plus i have major depression. I have tried many times to stop drinking but only for a short time before i relapse. i can’t do anything right!
Sorry to hear. And are you still homeless? When did you last relapse or is it just a regular thing again now?
What country are you in? I know in the UK they help with homelessness, but don’t know which country you’re from..
Hi BadYear!!! I am no longer homeless i live in a group home for people who are duel-diagnosed. It’s better than being on the streets. Drinking has become a regular thing for like the last 3 weeks and i am in misery, i cant seem to stop and i really don’t want to. i kind of enjoy the misery. I live in the United States, Massachusetts. If the Group Home finds out I’ve been drinking, they will have me hospitalized which i don’t want to happen. My daughter graduates high school on Sunday and that’s on of the events i am trying to hold on for. I really don’t know what to do because my drinking is becoming more obvious. I should just fucking kill myself now. But i want to wait till June 11th.