im very tired. (vent post)

ok, so, this might get incoherent, idk. i just need to get this out of my system. sorry if i get really vague.

i’m so tired of having friends. i love them, but i’m so exhausted. i don’t feel like ill be able to live much longer but ill try my best, i suppose.

it’s so hard to deal with depression (if i even have it. i still haven’t been able to get diagnosed.). i’ve gotten no professional help, except for one time when a school counsellor had to come to my home to get me out of my bed (if that even counts).

i’m so tired of choking back tears in public, constantly, and not being able to cry when i need to. i don’t want to keep getting my heart broken by small things that aren’t even break ups or that much big of a deal. i don’t want to keep supporting my friends, i want to push them away. they’ll find better people and i’ll be alone for the rest of my life.

i’m tired of getting out of bed every morning to communicate with my family when all i want to do is sleep my life away.

i’m just really tired.