Today is my birthday. I never celebrate and rarely tell others that it’s today. Unfortunately, my family knows, so i have to deal with them coming over and bringing some food and blablabla.
I d like to spend it alone, thinking about how im still not moving forward. Thinking that its just another year of failures, disapointments and suffering.
If everything goes alright, 2016 august 28 will be a lot better. It will be my last anniverssary and my last day alive
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I won’t throw out the standard greeting, since it doesn’t sound ‘happy’ for you, but congratulations on making it through another year.
I generally try to ignore my own b/d, but people insist on reminding me by sending cards. A little annoying.
If you do decide to make this the last day, I hope you find peace.
Thamk you. Last day is one year from now. Im still missing one keypart on the method and i still have to fix a few things in the life of those i love.
its a bit dumb tho because i believe once im gone, they will crumble again. But its worth a try!
ty for you reply. x
I think I know how you feel, my birthday is on August 20th and I don’t celebrate it either. The reason for that is basically that, besides the fact that I don’t like places with a busy crowd, my family never talks to me any time of the year and than when it’s my birthday everybody suddenly wants to come over and stuff. I hate that, so I don’t invite people. This year I seriously only recieved 1 card through the mail, it was from my grandparents. I like getting birthday cards though so that made me feel sad and forgotten. I guess I have a love-hate relationship with my birthday, 10% love, 90% hate. But I do wish that I would have gotten more birthday cards and things like that.
It also bothers me that people just wish me a happy birthday just because it’s my birthday. I ‘celebrate’ my birthday because I made it through another year. Not that I’m happy about that, I just figured that I would be dead before I would turn 15 years old. But I did :/
Happy birthday, love
It’s just a card. At least your grandparents still sent you one. Reading that part made me smile.
I neither like my birthday. Nobody really cares about me anymore and then, suddenly, all come to wish me a happy birthday and have their family celebration, while I sit quietly in corner for some time to not be rude and then I take off. On a different note, it’s nice when my friends remember, but I don’t get mad when they don’t. I am neither good with remembering birthdays and they show me that they care the whole year, not just for one day when it’s expected of them.
Birthdays are silly. I’ve never celebrated mine. I just work it like a normal day. Why plan for that day as your last, however?
That way I will have my death and birth anniverssary on the same day. Less pain for those that i leave behind.
Everyday is the same, whether packaged as a birthday (although nearly everyone has a birthday, because they were… born) or Easter, or Christmas. Yucj