Stayed awake most of the night.
I am in a dark brainspace for awhile.
I wrote this.
Sometimes my angsty pieces are a loud shout, and sometimes they’re merely a whimper, like this.
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I call it “Locked Away”.
Meaning, the things I need for my personal peace and joy have possibly been permanently locked away from me.
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Aside from the peice you wrote for me I’d say this is my favorite. Just lovely.
I’m so sorry you are in such a dark space. You can email me anytime the darkness gets too much. I consider you one of my friends in this world. I have few women who are friends and fewer that understand the shitstorm of mental illness.
Thank you.
If I could figure out a way to send the sheet music to you, I would.
When you do I’ll teach mysrlf how to play it on my piano.
Yeah > out of all the ones I have heard from you Cordless. I think I like this one the best. I like the piano chords and the long deep bass tones and the pauses. Its pretty dramatic. Its nice to see you posting more music. I am sorry to hear that you are in a dark brainspace for the time being. I have been there before many many times. Luckily I have been having a pretty good time recently….so I am enjoying a pretty clear mind at the moment. I have learned to really appreciate the times when things are good…. got to enjoy them before the next dark crazy storm comes.
Well. Creativity can really be a good way to weather through the storms. Keep up the good work with the music… and if you have sketched anything lately I would like to see it.
hang in there > its always good to see you posting and you can email me anytime.
Im going to listen to this one again.
I’m glad you like it.
I like your artwork too, so it’s good we like each other’s stuff.
I am still in a dark space and I don’t know what will happen, but thank you for all you said. I hope you’re able to make it out of your dark spaces even if I can’t find a way to get out of mine.
Cordless, I love it!!! when someone has talent like you, everything you do is special. you can contact me too! i love talking with you 🙂
Most things I do are not special at all.
When my bones and muscles hurt so bad I can barely roll over in bed, and yet I hurt too bad to actually get out of bed… so I’m stuck there but need to roll over… and grit my teeth in pain as I flop myself over…. and then realize I’m no more comfortable than when I started…
Yeah. Not very special.
But thank you for liking the music.
It’s always a relief when you say you like the things I’ve done.
Part of me always worries you will laugh.
I listened to the first minute and twenty seconds, sounds good.
This piece could work in a movie soundtrack. Scenario: This music plays as a 10 year old boy walks along the railroad tracks, through a forest with his dog. The dog has cancer, and the boy knows the dog hasn’t got much time left.
They walk to a lake, boy skips stones across the water’s surface, then the camera zooms in on dog’s cancer-stricken face.
This song is playing the whole time.
Every attendee in the theatre weeps uncontrollably.
Have you considered scoring for cinema?
but as the camera zooms in, he is distracted by the dog’s engorged flaming red erect penis.
Hahaha.
That’s not the direction I would taken for this tender scene, but I’m not the director.
I was thinking more like art-house-sensitive-tug-at-the-heart-strings, not Fido’s-got-a-chubby.
(I don’t even know if that’s allowed on film. The internet, yeah, but not in a mainstream theatrical release).
Isn’t that a bold face knock off from “Old Yeller”?
@HDS; ? I dunno, is “Old Yeller” a movie? If so I never saw it.
The music feels like ‘mood music’, and the scene I described is what I envisioned when listening to this piece of music.
I’m gonna go look up Old Yeller now.
No plagiarism here.
Old Yeller had rabies, the dog in Locked Away has cancer.
I stand directed. There weren’t any erect dog schlongs in “Old Yeller” either.
LOL CORRECTED!
Hehe.
We can’t be showing the kids them doggy dongs. C’mon.
aaahhhhwwwoo!!!!!!!
OMG.
Somewhere in there is a compliment.
LOL.
I think.
And possibly a few ASPCA issues.
But thank you Morris.
I would actually love to score for cinema.
That would be an awesome job, as long as they only wanted depressing music. 😉
And a few
I’ll listen to this when I’m at home, right now I’m at a bar drinking a Whiskey Sour and there’s this hot guy performing a song from The White Stripes, “Seven Nation Army,” right now on my request. Eeeee! This is a good night.
Okay, I’ve had a chance to play it. This one is very melancholic. Good mood music.
I agree with the others that you do have a talent for creating melodies that would be suited for film, TV, and video game soundtracks. You need to get in touch with some producers!
Thank you for that.
I’m glad you were able to play it. I’d love to write soundtracks, it sounds like a difficult but enjoyable task.
Dear Cordless’s peace & joy,
I think its unfair to keep her locked away frm yu since she makes such beautiful music
I hope they were listening!
(and thank you.)
From a melodic point of view this is my favourite piece I have heard of yours tbh. some of the chord progressions was lovely. really nice piece, the title is very fitting too :0)
Thank you for listening and liking it.
I like the juxtaposition of the extreme low-energy and the occasional smattering of 32nd notes.
Like the few remaining bursts of energy are just spilling out somewhere, leaving the remaining carcass drained.
32nd notes, I like that!! American music terminology makes so much sense. Here we call them Demisemiquavers…. we have a way of making really simple things sound more complex then need be lol.
Your music is so beautiful.
Aw, thank you.
I’m glad you liked hearing it.
(!)
How do you write that?? Do you just sit down, put your hands on the keys, and out it comes?? Or are there techniques you use? Gorgeous.
When I was younger (before notation software was invented), I would just sit at the piano and wait for whatever happened. Yes. When I found something I liked, I’d write it on music-manuscript paper.
These days the technique is easier, since there’s notation software.
A music-staff comes up on the screen, and you just plop the notes where you want them to go. You choose key signature, time signature, tempo, instrumentation, mixing, and all the usual things.
You can have it play the notes back, to make sure it’s what you had in mind.
Instead of changing things with an eraser on paper, you change it on the computer screen.
When it sounds the way it should, you save the file and export it into an mp3.
Thanks for replying.
I’m in dark
Me too!
Cordless, I know im 11 hours late. & 19 comments late, but I really love this piece. Ive played it like 5 times. I love connecting emotionally with music, & this struck a chord with me. Pardon the pun. I love that minor key sounding stuff. Thanks for sharing it.
Five times!
Thank you so much.
I’m glad people seem to like it.
The energy is different from my usual stuff… more despondent and distant.
You’re very talented. I’ve been replaying this for half an hour 🙂
Cordless, I really love this. The way it is calm, sort of acapella.
Can I ask how you learned music theory and composition?
When I was about 7 years old I started taking organ lessons.
That taught me the beginnings of chord/harmonic theory.
I taught myself a lot of things about intervals and inversions just by sitting at the piano when I was growing up.
Later, when I went to college and majored in music, I had to take music theory classes where I learned the “official” terms for these things I’d figured out years earlier.
Some people hated learning music theory… I loved it.
This calms me down. It’s sounds like hope… Just when i’m about to reach for it, it’s gone.
I miss hearing your compositions.
I wish I could download this so I can listen to it offline.