I really don’t know why I should live and suffer? My life is hoepless. People say we shouldn’t kill ourselves cause the ones who love us would be sad, but I don’t need to worry about that, I’ve got no family, I don’t have any friends, and I’ve never been in love. I’m sure nobody will be sad if I die. I’m poor educated, and too old and too poor to go back to school. And of course, my job is not the good reason to live, it doesn’t give me satisfaction. and I’m middle aged and very sick, I’ve got no chance to have my baby, who would wanna woman who can’t have baby? so,love is not a reason for me to live. I’m on anti-depressant for countless years, nothing can cure me, there’s just no hope. I don’t wanna live, I wanna die. How can I do? What’s the best way to put away with myself?
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there are people who love women who arent able to have kids. like my sister in law cant and my brother still adores her. so please dont think that for one second. you need to start doing something you enjoy. theres alot of free things you can do if moneys an issue. try to have fun doing something and getting social with people maybe doing what you love or what sounds fun. it could help alot. just take baby steps at a time and do different things tha may help. im sorry. keep your head up.
Calie, it’s not about not having a baby. It’s about not having anyone to love or anything to look forward to. And if you’ve ever suffered from depression, you know full well that you can’t just start making yourself do things to feel better. It’s selfish of you people who have lives, people to love, and things to look forward to to think that those of us who don’t should stay aloive for YOUR benefits. All I ever hear is how sad someone will be when I’m gone – SELFISH!!!! You will never understand what it means to be truly lonely, and to look forward to the day when you will do something about the unbelieveable pain…
Hello,
If you are really set on doing it, you should check how the Japanese handle things.
i’m sorry you are in so much pain. i completely understand your desire to die. i wish i could snap my fingers and make everything okay for you, but we both know i can’t do that. if you’re determined to commit suicide, i hope you find a painless way to go. have you tried any particular methods already?
frances, the world runs on selfishness. it is the root of all problems and it isn’t going anywhere. suicide, in itself, is a selfish action. you’re doing what you want, what you think will bring the most benefit to you. in this case, the benefit is a permanent escape from your hurt, lonliness, depression. i’ve been there. hell, sometimes i still am. i attempted to end it all once. obviously i failed, but i’m genuinely glad. i’ve had depression for years and i’m on medication as well. i hate depending on a pill to wind me up like a toy and let me get through another day. the thing is, i know that i can sit here and list everything in my life that points me toward giving up. it’s hard to see a value in life when its meaning, if it even exists, can’t be explained. but at the end of the day, i remember that the world does have a few strikes of beauty here and there. if you think your life is meaningless and tbat there is no chance at you ever finding anything that can make you feel even the slightest bit better, the slightest bit more happy, then maybe your right. its your life to take, you call the shots. but if you’ve ever exchanged smiles with a stranger or enjoyed a walk in the park, you’ll know that sometimes the world does have a little something to offer. get a pet. it won’t solve all your problems, but it’ll be nice to feel loved.
Hey,
I read this and felt very terrible… deep down you may think you are worthless and you can’t change yourself and your life… Well you are obviously reaching out for help. You came onto a site, where people are going to just direct you to better yourself… not off yourself. So I’m glad you came here.
Sometimes things in life are really hard to understand… why some people suffer, and others dont. But that is life right? Pain is something we all have to go through. I constantly, everrryday feel anxious and worried and it causes a lot of health problems for me, and I’m only 18! I’ve had this since I could remember… Its torn good relationships apart…. its made my marriage very hard… I’ve put my family through a lot. I’ve lost a lot of friends… the physical pain that comes from those feelings is sometimes unbearable. But I know that theres peroids in everyones lives that will someday pass, it may take a long time… but it will.
I, at times, think about just getting rid of myself… but I always think about how everything is for a reason on Earth -I’m not very religious but this keeps me going and I strongly believe it-. I believe we were all put here for a reason… we go through what we go through for a reason… and the fact that you’re still hangin in there after all these years of these problems? Makes me respect you and look up to you. You’ve held yourself together and not many people can do that. You are strong!
I just want to say, and beg you, please do not do anything to harm yourself. Everytime I hear of even a complete stranger harming themselves and sometimes fatally, I cry and feel their pain and wish they didnt do it. Every single time.
So if you feel that there is no one that cares… there is many… and many people like myself that it affects.
Keep your head up, smile when things get bad… have faith in yourself! You are worth that sweetie<3
The question to ask is how can I “live”; not how can I die. You are already dead figuratively – you say ” I don’t have hope” “I don’t have friends” “No one will ever love me” ” I am very sick” … etc. Do you love yourself? There is no joy in your life but there can be if you choose “life”. If you could have anything in your life or be anything, regardless of your current circumstances, what would it be? Life is a choice. I was “dead” too, for years , with no taste in my mouth, everything was bland, so much pain, buried inside my own mental tomb. Escape to a different reality is what you need. Rearrange your life and plan an escape to a happier you. Adopt a child; be a mentor; volunteer; when you take your eyes of you and your problems and begin to help others you’ll see it’s not as bad as it seems. Helped me. Also Jesus brought joy back into my life and if I shared my testimony you would think that you had the life of Bill gates (monetarily)
Please say you are still with us. I’ve read alot of things on this site and it hurts to see so much people sad and in pain. I will pray for you if you want someone to talk to I’m at mrbrandonjacobs@aol.com, don’t leave us
IN this world we don`t always find life the way we expected to be withing our own perception, there comes times where we feel hopeless and can`t find satisfaction with life anymore but that`s the time we`ve blinded ourselves and become totally belligerent about the good aspects of life. You may be saying to yourself right now that you are nothing in this world, no one cares about me,I don`t have anyone that will look out for me or loves me, but the matter of fact is that you have to become truthful with your own being and say, I`m a human being in this world with lots of potential who lives upon my own expectations but that right now i`m in a situation where I need help and need to find ways which can guide me towards the right path of getting out from this emotional tension suffering predicament. Now this is when it becomes complicated, asking the right questions to ourselves on how can I move forward in life is not so easy, in fact that is the challenge life gives us. Life is always trying to find ways to make us fail, It is our duty to seek and discover the right path of light and continue on in life making the right decisions without falling into the hands of failure. If you commit suicide, you`re giving up and being a coward for running away from your problems and not facing them with significant strength of will and spirit. Ask yourself the questions why you are feeling the way you are feeling right now and which are the steps I can take to make myself rise up from such pain(emotionally), take a stand and move forward in life withing this existence until my time comes that then naturally will fall in the conception of death. If I were to give you an advice, it will be to seek for professional help at this critical point, Look for the enjoyable things that makes you happy, become more sociable with people rather than staying isolated from the world, become more as an active person by going outside, gym, walk in the park,etc…, don`t let this hurtful dreary pain chain you and bring you down, YOU`RE SOMEONE IN THIS WORLD, WHO`S EXISTENCE IS IMPORTANT FOR ALL OF US, WE`RE TRYING TO HELP YOU, THAT MEANS THAT WE DO CARE AND SHALL CARE FOR ONE ANOTHER. YOU ARE A STRONG SPIRIT PERSON WITH A GOOD HEART, CAPABLE OF ACCOMPLISHING ANYTHING YOUR MIND DESIRES AND DETERMINATION GOALS YOU`VE PUT ON AHEAD, FOCUS AND I GUARANTEED YOU THAT YOU`LL BECOME SUCCESSFUL, DON`T LET NEGATIVE THOUGHTS MANIPULATE WITH YOUR LIFE, YOU ARE A WONDERFUL PERSON INSIDE, TRUST ME:), A MAGNIFICENT SOMEONE WHO I`M SURE THE TRUE YOU IS A HAPPY JOYFUL PERSON:), PLEASE DON`T GIVE UP,KEEP TRYING TO MOVE FORWARD IN LIFE AND HUGS TO YOU..:):).