Does anyone here feel like they’ve lost their way? Â Six years ago I had it all – just graduated and landed a great well paid job, nice house and wonderful partner. Â I now find myself jobless, single and lonely, and back living with my parents. Â I’ve never felt so alone and vulnerable. Â All my friends are progressing with their lives, getting married and having kids, whilst I’m regressing into someone I don’t even recognise. Â I hardly socialise anymore, it just makes me feel worse. Â I’m really scared of the future. Â I know that if I continue as I am doing there’s only one way to end it all. Â I don’t want to kill myself but I can’t cope with everything going wrong around me. Â I just want to be free.
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Hey,
we all want to be free! But if you kill yourself you will be just…ehm, you wont be anymore – that is not you being free, that is not being at all.
My “mantra” overhere is: have you checked whether you do not suffer the depression? Because when you are depressed you feel lousy just because you are depressed and the rest is secondary. You move in vicious circles then – for e.g. feeling no drive to meet other people, no pleasure from socializing – feeling bad for not socializing, feeling bad for feeling bad, not trying some change because of fear to fail and to feel band then being stuck, which brings further helplesness and the circles go on. Have you tried professional help? Some therapist, counsellor? It can really help. Try not to stay alone in this and professional help should be for many reasons more efficient than trying to talk it over with family or friends.
Wish you success in your way!
Hugo
Regression… yes those of us who find ourselves in this state are vulnerable to suicidal feelings. I must say I feel exactly the same. It’s a “What the hell happened?” type of thing. Where perhaps you no longer believe in angels, but might feel inclined to believe in daemons. Its really something terrible. But alas, by virtue of how we feel, we already know our fate. Because of that feeling and reality of not even having a lifeline in someone who can understand our situation and help, we are (seemingly) doomed to complete failure and likely an early death.
Really something terrible. Me– I am just completely indifferent; waiting for the ball to drop- absolutely powerless to help myself.
i went through a regressed state like this when i lost a job i loved and lost my way, too…it was hell, total hell. one of the worst times. all i can say is look for small openings in life, that is, make a small change. there are people out there you can socialize with who are safe and won’t add to your depression or compete with you but can help you. i found some and i eventually got another job and moved forward onto a new path. it takes time but it can happen.
I understand how u feel I had it all at one time a beautiful home great job then poof gone to a fire. I went down hill after that it has taken me years to start to get me back its a slow progress but with help of family and friends i am managing. I am not saying your road will be easy it will have lots of bumps and curves. But with the help of prayer and god I know you can make it through. good luck.
Go back in the past and find out out what your mistakes are. resume your life again.