With a heartbeat

dragged screaming from my rest

They cut me short.

Im a God whore now

Hiding under desks to hide away from people.

Whats with this Shyness

No dont do that

No Dont think that

Its Gods Will

Its wrong

Its Evil

They Laugh

They are Happy

Have Friends

They all going to hell

What is this wall

I can see you

What is wrong with me

Where is your sense of pride boy

Happy moments

Sad sack

There are people I love so much

And I just do.

Sometime I think they just get shit on.

I Cry

Days of spontaneity

Love Lost

Friendship Lost

lust Lost

blurs

Always in my mind

I live in my head

Peering out

Through a window of detachment.

Available

Used

Discarded

Love

Unappreciated

Unable to understand

Of science is beautiful

the most complex can be undone

can be reworked

redesigned

improved

But this Humpty Dumpty cant

Be put back together again

Doesn’t want to be put back together again

Just so angry

smile

pretend

haha

sound convincing?

just wants to feel good

to forget

to fade to black

to go away

Love

To be numb

To be void

To be at rest

Mine Not yours Not Gods

Still a heart bleating

Be it a heart bleeding