fuck it

you cant just fucking sit around for one god dam day and just feeling sorry for your self for a little bit

no not with out someone bitching at you saying its your own fault your life is shity

and that one person who says it is some stupid ***** who could give a fuck less about me but is sapposidly

sapossed to love me idk…… honestly im so angry at the world that i dont give a fuck about anything or any

one any more. Its like i cant show emotions

so i hide them become angry but have no one to take it out on…..

I just really dont understand wtf god pute us on earth for

its like this is all a fucking game

and we have no idea

but then…………………then there are day were i think back to when i was a little girl…….. and how i was so happy and sooooo sweet…….yeah it usually just pisses me off more …..because i hate my self that much that i cant even smile anymore

i have no reason to

i never sleep so im always tired its 4:51 am here in albany OR and i havnt slept in 2 days ….. just cause its one of those weeks for me

that i stay up late and hate on my self cause durring the day im either sleeping or hidding in my room until my mom and dad go to bed

or im out at some party getting trashed.

well any way i really dont see a reason to keep living when no one gives a flying fuck…. not even i give a flying fuck

its like my own anger is num like obviously im not happy but i dont try to make it better and i dont want to

because every time i try it gets fucked …….so its w/e im 18 years old and i cant even learn to do anything write….

aspecially realation ship wise…… I broke up with a guy who i was in love with…….. because he

called me 3 times today and it annoyed me……i dont even no why it did moste girls would love it but 4 some reason im mad at who ever gets to attached to me almost as if.

i dont want them to

hence the reason why im so god dam lonley …. hugh?