Hello
I’ve chickened out so many times but I know one day I will do it. I do feel guilty thinking of people that have died that would have given anything to live I feel so selfish. I was abused when I was younger and cant speak to anyone cause it was a family member. I think of the family and how that news would destroy their lifes so I keep it bottled up so they can live their lifes normally whats one life compared to so many. For a while I was happy but that all ended it seems my life is just meant to be lonely. I dont know what else to say there is loads more feel I could write all night. My love for my mother keeps me going Id do anything for her thats why Ive decided to make it look like an accident. Walk by the river make a mark as if Ive slipped Id hate for her to feel guilty or hate me for doing it.
Jenny
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Jenny. Please don’t do it. Suicide is simething that can’t be undone. Tell your mother so you can get help. I hope you change your mind. I care I will listen and so will others. Just cuz your feeling this way now doesn’t mean you will forever. Get help. Don’t be ashamed. Stay strong.
jenny,
you are doing amazingly well. although you may not believe me, reading your story meant i did not have to write my own as they sound almost identical. please think about the finality,about how it can’t be undone. you can get through this. if you don’t want to tell your mam would you even consider therapy to try and decipher some of your feelings and get a clearer outlook? i care what happens to you. get help. be gentle with yourself.