Pain of a Child

  February 4th, 2010 by lunasdeathwatch

I’ve lost 3 pounds in the last 2 days. I’m hungry and I can’t breathe. I have no idea why I refuse to eat. Maybe I’m trying to prove something. I just don’t want to live anymore…

I took  break from love for a while, but now I am at the place I was when I was 12 (Yes, to me a year is a lifetime) I don’t want a pathetic little puppy love, meaningless practice relationship. I want the guy I dream about! Why in the hell can’t I have that? Is it really that naive to want the almost perfect guy? I don’t want Romeo! How awful would it be to have a guy better than you? I just want a strong manly guy who knows how to hold someone.

I was only out of bed for a total of 1/2 an hour. Maybe I should just take my chances and slice down that pretty blue road with a crimson center. I mean I have absolutely no sexual desire anymore. It’s amazing what depression does. I just realized something… If I wasn’t gay… I’d be the perfect Catholic! I don’t masturbate since I am Dr. Morbidity…

Speaking of masturbation… I think the pope even does it. I mean use your heads people (no pun intended) What guy who doesn’t have sex isn’t going to get all that horniness built up until he looks like the devil, and just have a whacking session? Speaking of pedophile priests (Enough said…)

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