I thought I would die anytime.
I’m not afraid of death.
I told my husband that placed my ashes into the Columbia River if I died.
I like Columbia River and the mountains around it.
I wish I could become a fish swimming freely in the Columbia River.
If he went fishing, if he catch a yellow fish,
Please let it go back the river,
Because it maybe me.
IÂ won’t likeÂ my next life still controlled by him.
My husband laughed.
Iâ€™m not afraid of death.
But I love my mom, my kids.
How could I leave them?!