This better work

Kina,
I talked to you before. I hope you do not do this thing. It is pretty awful for the people who love you to find your brains blown all over your room. But if you feel like you must do this… Write a letter to each person that is in your family and tell them how you feel..own your death. They will carry the horror and the “whys” for the rest of their lives. So try to answer those whys before you go. Tell them it is not their fault that you just had more pain than you had coping skills. Make sure that you put on a pair of Depends before you shoot yourself because you are going to crap all over the floor or wherever you chose to kill yourself. And think about where the bullet may go..it will either go through your skull or just scramble your brains. If it exits it could go through a wall or window, so make sure you do not hurt anyone else. Wherever you are, it is gonna make a mess, so maybe do not do it inside your home..go outside. No one will be able to see your body after you are gone..your head will be damaged pretty badly. Think about who will find you. That person will have the image of your gruesome death in their mind for the rest of their life..so that is the reality of their life..for the rest of their life. If you do not care at all about your family and friends…one of them will be the one to find you..well then you will leave that indelible image of your death and the horror of finding you forever burned in their mind and their nightmares. I do not know if you have thought this through beyond ending your pain. But, think about the lifelong pain you will cause doing this and do everything you can to tell the people you leave behind it is not their fault, but your choice.