To all of you who want to commit suicide, please read this first (my current summarizing conclusive thoughts after reading many posts up ’till now)

I will firstly try to be brief, and to-the-point with what I’m going to say here
(it’s not an easy thing, especially since I’m not that good of a writer, and secondly, English is not my first language ie: I am from Indonesia, and don’t ask why I can get to this website!…it’s strange, I know. internet is amazing).

It’s been a week that I’ve accidentally found this website, and ever since then following many posts & threads here. I will say this again & again: that I’ve found so many sincere, honest, and also the most heartfelt and even most eye-opening, mind-shifting posts/threads and ideas that I’ve ever known thorought my life.
For those of you who are new here, I want to somehow honor this particular guy’s post named Splinter, and you can find how overwhelmingly & deeply CHANGED I am by his posts, and I’m sure also for many of you here who have read his posts.
And thus, even though I still don’t know if the guy (Splinter) is still alive or not (I do sincerely hope he’s still alive..! he’s just such a wonderful & exceptional person I’ve ever known, even though only through ONLINE world!), please allow me the honor to re-post again the link of the threads/posts related about him as to make his ideas & ‘teachings’ to be forever eternal, and hopefully, can keep spreading out:

This is Splinter’s original post & story:
http://suicideproject.org/2010/08/lets-face-it-were-all-evil-in-some-way/

and then here’s the latest story of splinter, posted by Pink404 (please read also the last comment by toosugary, actually, just above my *newest* comment there too): http://suicideproject.org/2010/08/splinter/

Now, onto my real post.

Instead of I go rambling, which I’m afraid will turn into my ‘bad habit’ somehow of writing a too-long message that you’ll get tired to read, I will summarize all my thoughts by using numbered points.
And if there’s anything, that you want further detailed explanation, or even to discuss it, you can then just choose the specific numbered point(s) below.
There’s nothing more honorable than if I, no, ALL of us here can get so involved in ‘connecting’ with each other, and discussing the points, before if you’ve decided to commit a suicide.

1. My first and probably most important point:
sometimes, our thoughts of suicide can be caused by simply NOT acquiring the *additional* knowledge(s) enough, in whatever form that is, that even if it’s just a small knowledge, it might CHANGES what we *initially* thought or changed our initial perspective about all the ‘hopelessness and vanity’ in this world and humankind, or that there’s NO more hope in our life, etc etc.
A brief example: if it were not because of I accidentally found this website, and reading so many heartfelt, sincere posts here, especially Splinter’s post, I’ve probably still have the OLD perspective about Life, never a NEW one, let alone the enlightening, empowering ones!
I can cite many, many other examples, such as my cousin’s very-simple-yet-smart comments about Death and this Life (you can read in some of my posts here in this website), and for me personally, to be able to eventually find a seemingly common group of similar, like-minded people, from initially just a mere accidental Personality Test I’ve followed in my college years about 10 years ago, and some great perspective-changing personal-development blogs that thank-goodness seems to be happening and spreading more & more. This one blog *alone* might even perhaps change some of your perspectives, although it’s not directly related about suicide or death : http://celestinechua.com/blog/how-to-start-from-nothing/  .

And also, I might even be bold to say (and I know one poster here have also somewhat said this, in her own words, somewhere in this website): that some (or many) of you have been soo shaped with so much negative experiences in your life, that sometimes you just can’t seem to ‘climb the mountain’, and look at the ‘half-full glass’ perspective on the *other* side of the mountain.
And no, I’m definitely not talking about DECEIVING the ‘Truth’ , but simply to recognize that you can CHOOSE to view a given fact, or information, as in ‘half-full’ or ‘half-empty’ perspective, in almost ANYthing!
I would give you the most straightforward ‘proof’ and example of this: seeing that some (or even many, as I’ve noticed!) of you have somewhat CHANGED your mind and perspective, once you’ve read the other’s post or comment to your original thread, or post here!
I don’t know about you, but I’ve personally seen so many “you’re right….thank you for your kind words” or “hey it made perfect sense! thank you! wow I never knew about this before!”  among so many posts and comments in this website. This surely must mean SOMETHING good, and positive, right?
This leads to the point #2

2. We are all more ‘CONNECTED’ than we have initially ever thought of!
Sure, before coming to this website, each of us might think that we’re so damn alone, and that nobody in real life understand us, and hence we want to go commit the ‘shortest way’, ie: suicide.
But then, you chanced to find this website, and then, the amazing things happened: you suddenly found that you’re NOT alone! that there are also OTHERS who are perhaps sharing similar thoughts, even similar like-minded ideas and perspective about this world!
There are even some new ideas from others, that when you got ‘connected’, it totally changes your perspective about what you CAN do in this only-once-Life-on-this-Earth !
so if there’s anything I’ve learned more from my stay in this website for this past one week, it’s that being ‘connected’ IS very important.
We are all not a *perfect* human beings, and we are obviously not God.
so this is why we need to connect with each other, especially in this advanced-technologically Internet era! and we should be thankful, and at least USE it to create a CHANGE among the common, ordinary people.

Hell, so many great and inspiring things thorought human’s history is rarely achieved by only ONE single person’s idea. Even Albert Einstein have to rely on the previous Physics theories, to finally come up with his new theory that have really CHANGED the world ever since! Obama might rely much on Sir Martin Luther’s “I have a dream” aspirations 40-years ago, that it INSPIRED him so much!
And YOU all here, you all have a CHOICE, to keep *connecting* with each other fellow like-minded human beings here (this is why I truly believe in the importance of having a mailing list group, or a new special forum perhaps, so we can stay in close together, supporting each other consistently!), and to ACT upon those ideas. 

Never ever underestimate the power of an idea, or a thought, or a theory.
As shown very clearly by Splinter’s case and his posts (I’ve posted the links above)!
This leads to point #3

3. I believe that most of you who posted here are either or both very sincere, heartfelt, and sensitive souls, and/or also smart, intelligent people!
I truly believe that each of You here are MEANT for SOMETHING! a “Purpose”, if you may say, NOT necessarily created by ‘God’ or whatever,..but like Splinter said so well in his post: it’s as simple and basic as something that you KNOW what you truly really have to do,…before you’ve decided to take that *final* step of commiting a suicide, and stop LIFE.
In fact, if there’s anything very important I want to say at this point, it’s this: this fucked-up world might needs that needed change from EACH OF YOU here!
I am not saying that you can’t choose to commit suicide and death (‘cuz I’ve realized that I’ll never fully able to understand other people’s pains, experiences, and sufferings that made them come into their conclusion to end their lives. I try NOT to be that egoistical, assuming that I know everything! no, far from that actually! I believe that I’m *not* a perfect person, let alone God, who knows everything about a person), but just as one poster here said that Death is just IS,…it suddenly occured to my mind that Life is also just IS.
Your Life, your breath, every ounce of your breath,
every feelings of frustrations at the current fucked-up state of mankind,
every good intention, soul of yours, that all have been ‘gifted’ or ‘given’ along with your breath, your OWN Life……isn’t that also IS? it’s just that perhaps you have been clouded so much by the ‘evil’ in this world that you haven’t known or considered about what ‘Life’ could really be,..if you just give it a CHANCE , and keep preserving…’till the end, ’till you’ve encountered the ‘Death is’ anyway?…

Again, the ‘half-full, half-empty glass’ analogy comes into play here.
I used to discuss about “the meaning of my life” with my intelligent cousin, and he said something that I will probably never forget:
“sure, you can choose to think that “we will eventually die anyway, so why don’t we just DIE right now??” , but you can also CHOOSE to turn it around, and think “since we will eventually die anyway, why not just try to LIVE our damn-only-ONCE life (in this Earth!), and do our BEST to create something, even creating or be the CHANGE we want to see (Mahatma Gandhi’s quote also), until we will all die *anyway* at the end??”
it surely makes me think hard & ponder….and make still keep living, no matter what, up ’till now!

Always remember that the greatest and most inspiring changes thorought the human’s history has always been a GOOD, POSITIVE ones, caused by the *REAL ACTIONS* by those daring individuals!
(Note what I’m emphasizing there: Real ACTIONS. Not just praying and wishing!).

So if now any of you are feeling so much frustrations, angers, anguish, and even depressed at how the humanity mostly are, I will say what I once read in a good inspiring article: USE it all!
USE your anger, USE that energy, and most importantly is to CHANNEL it into some *REAL ACTIONS* !
DO something real, instead of just praying, wishing, and crying, which in most cases won’t change a thing.
You are given that ‘feelings’ for a *REASON* ! Try to find what you can DO, and expand your limit, grow beyond your comfort zone, and thus be a BIGGER change you want to see.
Because you *know* that you are a human, full of potentials, that you are supposed to DO something with your untapped potentials, instead of just burying them, and instead just cry & wipe over these kind of stories, because it won’t change ANYthing!

Your ‘goodness’ is there for a reason. Use it well.
Each of us doesn’t have to DEPEND or constantly, endlessly LOOK for the Hope (though it will definitely also help a lot, to know that you’re not alone in all this!), but just as obvious from how GREAT changes have really, literally occured by Splinter’s case (as mentioned in the latest post by toosugary here: http://suicideproject.org/2010/08/splinter/ ), I really believe that we can go CREATE the Hope!
in fact, some of the most inspiring, and even greatest GOOD things thorought human’s history have been CREATED by those ‘weird’ and even ‘outcast’ human beings who have so many radical thoughts,…just like many of YOU guys here!

4. This last point: contrary to perhaps what many of you initially thought: Humanity is not ALL that hopeless!
In fact, as my cousin have suggested, and related to my 1st point about knowing the *additional* knowledge, in this case, History, he said that we are now might be living in the most peaceful era, compared to those past centuries ago, like during World War eras, the ‘Cold War’ era, the Dark Ages, the Kingdom-ruling era, and so on, so on.
just imagine how many helpless people are burned, tortured & silenced by the dictatorships.
At least now we know ‘common, ordinary’ people like us can have much more voice & powers, thanks to technology and particularly Internet!
just look at how Obama won as a first American Black president, isn’t it because the votings of internet by ‘common, ordinary’ people like us that eventually influenced the outcome?? Things like this still didn’t exist even just a century ago!!
And we’re still not talking about the past-incurable diseases, that now have been found the cure to those diseases, like influence, tuberculosis, etc.
There’s NO single previous era before, that an opinion from a simple, ordinary 14, 15 year old kid can affect many ‘simple, ordinary’ 20’s even 30’s, 40’s something adults across the globe, in other part of the country reading through his/her computer screen!!
And imagine if EACH of us here has tried to at least CHOOSE to DO something, using our current era’s privileges and resources and technology, to honor Splinter’s heartfelt & touching posts, thoughts, and ‘teachings’,..instead of choosing the “quicker, easier” ways by choosing Death very immediately. 

I guess what I’m trying to say in all of these points, in summary, is probably this: Try to NOT give up this only-once precious-life on this planet Earth too quickly. As far as possibilites are concerned, it might simply because you haven’t had acquired enough knowledge, or a NEW state-of-mind/perspective, shared by other person.
Try to ‘connect’, and find similar, or like-minded people, or people who care for you (point #2), and if you can’t seem to find one in real-life (because bounded by their fucked-up society rules or beliefs or something like that), then that’s what Internet is all for, isn’t it?
Know that Humanity is not ALL hopeless (point #4),
and most importantly, know that EVERYTHING that you’ve sincerely felt, are probably really meant for something! (point #3). Perhaps a true purpose (or a ‘calling’ from God, forces of this vast universe, or whatever you want to call it) unique to you! so USE it all, don’t waste or throw ’em all away. USE them to ACT, because as Splinter said so well, only through REAL ACTIONS, instead of crying, wishing, escaping, or even just praying alone, we can really start to CREATE REAL CHANGES we want to see. 
Again, I can never get tired from such an inspiring words by Gandhi:
“Be the Change that you want to see in this world”
Don’t wait.  Don’t wait for others.  Don’t wait for “hopes” .
Be the change. and keep connecting, and sharing, and supporting many souls.
Don’t die yet,…at least before you’re doing what you *know* deep down inside to be your REAL purpose (ie: what you *know* you really have to do) in this earthly-once–only Life.

You might be what the world needs.
You might be that real, sincere, most heartfelt CHANGES that this fucked-up world really needs to be *enlightened* with!  Go, walk the talk!
Anything that’s worth the efforts never comes easily. As a poster said wonderfully in one thread: “anybody can just choose to die, but it surely takes a stronger to choose to keep living”, and especially, to DO something he/she knows what he/she have to do in this Life!
Or perhaps, you might even mean the WORLD to a person, or to your friends, or perhaps to someone online across the globe (like Splinter’s, again!), unknowing to you!!

Even if all else fails,…and after reading this turned-out-to-be-a-long thread (yeah I’ve just realized it, sorry guys,..can’t help my flowing pouring thoughts!..), you’ve still decided you want to *choose* Death (ie: comitting suicide), then at the very least, I know you *know* what you always want to do with your suicide: to leave a very important message, whether to your family, friends, or the world!
Then, by all means, please make it a ‘meaningful’ death, so others can SEE your reasons, your important message!
Use technology & resource available nowadays: Create a blog/website, like what Splinter did (again, posted by toosugary, in the link above), which perhaps unknowing to him, have caused the ‘Message’ to spread and spread, so it’s not all in VAIN.
Write a deep-lasting letter, and put it somewhere visible to your family, friends, or even to large number of people, if you will.
or many other things,…so the important message of yours can leave the MARK, so others and perhaps future generations can LEARN something or even a LOT from your message.

Then, maybe then, this world, humanity and mankind might get more and more hopeful again, without we even realized it!