It basically started with Him . A wayward mother & her three year old bastard of a daughter . Leaving everything behind, just throwing it all away . & making the biggest mistake a mother ( or at least mine ) could ever make .
How could she marry Him ? I was three years old & I cried at their wedding . I didn’t want it to happen . I didn’t want another douche bag of a father . & exactly that he was . The abuse , Manipulation, lies , drugs , You coward . How could you do that to both yourself & I ? & then the fucking loonie bin is a GREAT fucking place to end up , right mum ? Hoyeah . But when you two ended , nothing got better . You were still crazy , single , & alone with three kids . Not to mention that your oldest son has tourettes , your youngest son was raped & your only daughter is going fucking insane . & then you wonder why ‘ i hate everything . ‘ Normal girls don’t dream about being serial killers ever single night of their lives .Normal girls don’t have to cover their legs & arms because they’re butchered to pieces .Normal girls dont stick their toothbrushes down their throats because their entire family are skinnier than toothpicks, & Me , the only one , Is Fat & ugly . & stupid . & it sure does seem to me that i matter the least . When was the last time i saw that shrink ? My life is a disaster . The boy that i’m absolutely in love with , hates my guts , my family is crazy, i’m crazy , my best friend is dead , & all i want is to be dead too .
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look im not going to be stupid and say i know what your feeling or something like loners stick together because to tell you the truth were not alone. my names iyanna and im from the usa i hate it i hate here i hate everyone here its not like im some terrorist its that whats to like about this place. i want to run away but nobody will come with me plus im a bit young. and to tell you the truth very ugly. my lifes been hell my mother constiantly nags me my father he hit me and touched me i wont i wont lie about that he also called me the worst names you could call a kid. to tell you im alone in this world would be a lie cause im not millions of teens get treated this way. i want out though and i thought was the way out was dying it ends up each time i try killing myself it wont work. and the guy ill never stop loving left me for one of my friends because i was depressed and suicidal. im constantly messed with at school. and people just hate me cause im different. there ignorant self centered idiotic pieces of shit who should burn in hell. thats what they deserve. but its not like they ll make it out of high school anyways. hey i might not even make it out of middle school. alive that is. but what im asking is before you choose to kill your self. dont think of anyone else but you because your special and dont say your not. because you deserve the world just as all those other kids do we all deserve the best even though we get the worst. if there mean to you tell them to fuck off if they tell you to go die look right at them and say your a piece of shit ignorant ass face why dont you go die. and if they punch you punch as hard as you can right back. dont be afraid. stand up for everyone and just throw the world off your shoulders and be free. tell everyone to shut the fuck up and dont be afraid to say it either because they deserve to hear you. you are one of the best your are one of smartest and just to tell you if you make it out now, you ll make it to the top. as for your brother im sorry he was probably tired of it sad and just couldnt think of anywhere to go but death. dont die because you deserve better. i promise.