I’ve read some of the posts here and I feel so helpless for some people. We all have our hard times I know. I’m going thru another one now but jeez guys….don’t give up. I did it once before and really feel like doing it again now. Life is shit sometimes. We get so bogged down by negativity and stupid people that sometimes we forget to have a bit of strength to stand up for ourselves. I came on here to announce to the world that I was going to do it…the saddness gets to me sometimes and I think they’ll be no way out…but there is…hopefully. Life is a precious gift. I threw it away once before and vowed I’d never do it again…but…here I am…needing help from strangers. I have someone that loves me and I have everyone telling me they’ll leave me if I end up with him. Lose my kids or lose the love of my life…toss up huh! I might just throw myself up into the air, pull the trigger and no one will have me. Simple as that. Why does happiness always get pulled out from under me??