WE ARE ALL COMMITING SUICIDE

NO MATTER WHAT YOUR DOING IN LIFE WETHER YOU WANT TO OR NOT WE ARE ALL DYING OF SUICIDE WE ALL DO THINGS THAT CAUSES US TO DIE WETHER ITS IN A LONG PERIOD OF TIME OR A SHORT PERIOD OF TIME SOME OF US JUST WANNA GO QUIKER THAN OTHERS

WHILE IM ON HERE TYPING I DONT UNDERSTAND ALL OF YOU WITH YOUR I WANNA DIE WITH NO PAIN NO MATTER HOW YOU TRY AND KILL YOURSELF ITLL HURT CAUSE YOU AND YOUR BRAIN WILL TELL YOUR BODY ITLL HURT SO YOU CANT GO THE WONG WAY WITH ANY SUICIDE ITLL ALL TURN OUT LIKE S***T IVE TRIED MY THIGH ARTERY AND MY NECK ARTERY AS A SOLUTION FOR MY WEAKNESS AND IVE TRIED CUTTING DOWN WARD MY ARMS IT DOESNT WORK IM STILL ALIVE AND WALKING AND AS ALWAYS FEELING LIKE I DONT BELONG I CANT HELP YOU ANY OF YOU I WONT TRY AND TALK YOU OUT OF YOUR SUICIDE EVEN IF IT MAKES ME AN ACCOMPLICE JUST BECAUSE I STILL DONT UNDERSTAND WHY I MYSELF AM ALIVE IM 20 YRS OLD AND HAVE THOUGHT OF SUICIDE SINCE I WAS 10 OR YOUNGER IVE HAD A THOUSAND THOUGHTS AND WAYS TO KILL MYSELF TRIED A COUPLE BUT I CANT UNTILL I HAVE HEALTH INSURANCE JUST BECAUSE IF MY ATTEMPT DOES NOT GO AS PLANNED THEN I AM SCREWD TO LIFE WITH STUPID THERAPIST THAT ID PROBABLY HAVE TO PAY AND NOT TO MENTION THE MEDICAL BILLS AS YOUC AN TELL I COVER EVERY ANGLE IF I AM TO DIE

THATS ONE THING IM SCARED OF I NEED TO MAKE SURE I HAVE MEDICAL INSURANCE BECAUSE IF I DONT SUCCEED I DONT WANT A BILL OR THERAPIST  AND I ALSO DONT WANT TO BE LEFT TO ROUGHT IN A WHEEL CHAIR OR ANYTHING ELSE OF SOME SORT I DONT WANT TO BE A VEGETABLE AND BE MORE OF A BURDON TO MY FAMILY ALL I WANT IS TO BE SET FREE AND SO FAR ALCOHOL HAS BEEN WORKING FOR ME  <3 I LOVE MY WHISKEY AND VODKA IT IS AS YOU MAYT SAY MY LAST RESORT IT USTO BE HEROIN AND DRUGS WELL THOSE DIDNT DO MUCH FOR ME EITHER SO HERE I AM IN THIS SITE TELLING YOU ALL HOW I FEEL TODAY TELL ME YOUR THOUGHTS 🙂