I’m 18.. Been through things that at certain ages, I shouldn’t have had to worry over. Been on the streets, been starving with no food, my dad has never been in my life. child protective services in my life my entire 18 years. Lost the only person I lived for which was my mom at the age of 13.Â I’ve basically been to hell and back more the a couple of times.It doesn’t get easier to live without her. I’m tired of being angry at the world for her not being here.. I’m so exhausted from being so mad all the time. I just can’t seem to get out of bed. & on top of everything.. I know 18 is young to be engaged but I was.. and the man I loved no longer cares about me and no longer loves me because I made a small mistake on which he couldn’t forgive me for.. but when it comes to every one else around him. He can forgive them. Some one help cause I don’t think I can keep up this charade much longer.