Thinking I might actually kill myself. Â For real. Â I’m going through the process of deciding if I should do it or not and this is part of my process. Â I’ve talked to one close friend and there are more people I would talk to before actually doing it. Â I’m 21 and I’ve had suicidal thoughts since about 10. Â I wrote this a while ago about how I feel:Â http://suicideproject.org/2011/01/on-friendship/ comment on that or on this, please. Â Let me know how you feel so I can keep thinking about it.