If I were to do this – I would go about it this way.
Trains – Trains wiegh thousands of pounds. It would not have to hurt either. You may not even have to feel fear,Â Â if you just go lay on the track and fall asleepÂ close to the time the next train will come. The driver would not be at fault either – it would take him at least a mile before he could stop the train and that might be too late.
I am thinking of using a train.
These reasons may seem silly but I hate this constant pain. Like most suicide people the amount of pain and trauma are more than I can deal with. My dog is 15 years old and suffers from a collapsing trachea. It is a condition that can get progressivley worse and could kill him. He would cough himself to death. When I was in 9th grade I had to watch my dog die from pneumonia. I do not want to watch my friend die like that again.Â I would rather die then have to go through that all over.Â He is just a little 4 pound dog! He is too cute to go out like that! I take him to the vet and I ask for help. She gave me an honest answer “He is 15 years old, anything can kill him”. He sometimes takes a steroid but that is only a temporary fix. Last night was really bad – But he still holds on! I can’t do this anymore.Â Everyday it feels like someone is putting a papercut on my heart.Â IÂ doÂ feel greatful that he is still here, yet I hate that I feel stuck and I cannot move on.Â I cn’t put him down yet because it is not bad enough to put him down – I have to sit and slowly wiat till we get to that point.
I am not happy with my marrige. I am not an equal partner but somewhere above the pets. My wife is a fun person but she does not value me as an equal or care what I have to say about something. I tried to break up with her six times when we were dating but it was like my opinion did not matter. I can’t get out. I just got a new job, and I feel I am not adequate for it. I know that if we wait maybe a rainbow will appear at then end of the stom – but I am SO tempted to give into the storm.