So lately my life has been nothing but a drag. I have clinical depression bi-polar disorder aniexty issues and panic disorder. Everything will go great for me for a couple months and then shut the next day. I’m starting to feel like friends family and my boyfriend aren’t enough. I need help. I’ve been cutting since the 7th grade and have attempted a few times.
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i can’t say i know how you feel because i’m not bipolar/have aniexty issues/panic disorder…. but i do know about cutting. i won’t try to stop you, i’d b a hypocrite (or however u spell that, if it’s even the right word)
but yea, if you need to talk, download problems, tell some1 about ur day, or just feel explody for good or bad reasons (could be a cute-splosion or something) i’ll be here every night to talk if you want 🙂
I guess I just feel nothing is ever going to go right for me ever since two years ago. My parents divorced my house burnt down my gram died. I just don’t see anything happening for me. I lost my job I’m homeless and this happens every 2 to 6 months. I’m tired of crying I’m tired of trying I can’t please even myself.
I suffer from anxiety and depression i know it sucks its a bloody curse! How old are you hun?
I’m 22. And I use to think I had life all figured out but I got in with the wrong people started doing drugs my boyfriend beat me. I just don’t feel the way I want to no matter how hard I try.
Oh we’re pretty much the same age im 23 where you from?
I’m from New Hampshire
): hmm, that’s pretty cruel of the world… well (i’m not trying to be rude) but some people enjoy being homeless…they don’t have to pay extra bills or worry about it…
i’m very sorry to hear about your parents and your house and your gram… >_< my grandfather died on valentines day 2 years ago, i loathe the day… if it helps any though, she's not gone. she's in your heart 🙂 and she's proud of you, she's pleased. she'll act as your guardian angel i'm sure 😀
i know this world can hurt but you don't have to take it all on ur own. it's ok to lean on others when your tired. 🙂 we're here for you.
Oh okay im from Australia god everyones so far away 🙁
Well that’s why I’m here. My dad says I’m crazy that it’s just all in my head. My mom doesn’t want to deal with it. I’ve lost friends because of my issues and the ones I do have refuse to talk about it and I hate talking to councilors or therapists because I feel they’re out to get me or can’t be trusted.
I know how you feel im the same
lol i know how u feel w/ the councilors and parents adn friends…
ur not crazy tho 🙂 the ones who consider themselves sane are the insane 😀
I just don’t know how much physically and emotionally I can take. The depression controls everything tht I do. It’s like I’ve lost all good emotion and fun.
Have you spoken to anyone about it? Gone to the docs, meds kinda help?
):> ah…yea i know that feeling too… it might not help much, but maybe volunteer to work somewhere. u never know when they might open up a paid job…
I have been on a few different medications and I don’t know I guess my body gets use to them. And because everyone has rejected me so, I’ve been keeping everything to myself.
Its good to get things out keeping it all in will drive you mad find someone to talk to someone you can trust or you can talk to us we’re all in the same boat here and we all have similar issues so we can relete. Maybe you could try therapy it could help you alot or maybe even write things down alot of people also do that and you could also go to a doctor and maybe try meds again maybe try something different that you havent had before
I have journals full of deep dark surprised thoughts. It’s like I have this voice in the back of my mind pushing me wanting me to succeed at not living. And my heart is conflicted
I think don’t have have “clinical” depression or is bi-polar, but I am in depression so I can relate a bit. I’ve been thinking of suicide constantly and think that nothing is going right for me either. I dont’ think you should cut yourself though, it’s not a really good thing to do, even if it does relax and calm you. If your boyfriend beats and hits you, I don’t think you should be with him anymore, he’ll just make you feel worse.
If you have deep dark surprised thoughts that are bothering you, just share it with us here, or on messenger or email. You can talk to me if you need or want to, I’ll help you carry some of your burdens. I’m sure other people here are willing to help you too… since we understand your pain.
Oh no it’s not my boyfriend now. It’s an ex the one I’m with now is great except for the fact when I tried to tell him about my disorders he gave me that one face you don’t want to see… The “you’re fucking crazy” face. And really I wouldn’t mind talking to someone who is going through the same thing it’s just my mood changes so frequently I can’t tell you what you’re going to get.
It’s good you’re not with that abusive boyfriend anymore, someone who abuse and hits you, isn’t someone who loves you. I can understand what you mean by saying he doesn’t understand. I get that face too when I tried to talk to a friend about things long ago, and then other times asked my other friends to help me. They all lied and abandoned me.
I’m fine with dealing with mood changes. I can understand how that can happen. Sometimes you just feel so frustrated that you lose control of your emotions and get easily upset.
It’s nice to have people to understand. I mean when I’m calm and think about it I don’t want to do anything stupid but when I get depressed or have a spell I know at any moment I could snap and it could be my last. I got depressed so bad about losing my apartment that I went and took a bath and just sliced my arm all up idk what to do with myself
Yeah, sometimes… it’s like a feeling you can just go insane at just any point and go crazy and do crazy things to kill yourself and end it, without thinking about how you do so. That’s what I get, idk if you get that. Though I’m trying to find a better way to do so than just any method.
If you don’t know what to do with yourself, I can help if you want. I can only give advice and suggestions, but I’ll be there for you. I’ll try my best to be. I can be very stupid myself, so idk if I’ll be of much assistance, but if you need anything, just let me know. Just tell me if you ever want to talk or need someone to talk to and listen.
Well I could use a new friend. Someone who understands and idk I still feel like today I want to end it all.
Then I’ll be here for you and help you as best as I can. We can talk here or email if you want. If you rather email or something instead, just tell me.
I don’t think you should end it. What’s bothering you today?
I would like to exchange emails. Well it’s the homeless jobless no money to pay my court fee it’s horrible general stress
Sure, just tell me your email and I’ll send you a message where you can contact me.
I’m sorry to hear that. If you live in the USA, it’s still pretty hard to get a job nowadays. It won’t get any better until 2-4 more years, that’s what my economics teacher told me before. I wish I could help find you a job, but I myself, do not have a job either.
My email is lannabbyxfr3shxx@aim.com
And I know I hate it here there’s no real good jobs no good money to be made our healthcare is shit we are selfish egotistical people who think of everyone different than us as a lesser of the world. Oh what I would give to live in another country. Or die.
I just sent you an email.
And yeah, I don’t want to seem unpatriotic or anything, but our country is really selfish. They cut down on education for younger kids and they reduce our healthcare when we need it. Instead, they would leave other unimportant things alone. The world is really messed up these days and society is too..
I sent you an email back. And wrote a new post, a poem
Yes, I checked out your poem… I can really relate to it…
And yeah, I saw your email. You can contact me there if you ever want to talk or if you need me for anything.
Alright. And if you ever come across a book called 13 Reasons Why read it it’s about a girl committing suicide but each person in that book I can set up in my life and I relate to the girl so well
I’ve never read that book before, but the title sounds familiar. Even if you can relate to that girl really well, you should live and not kill yourself.
I can to relate to everything you said LonelyEyes. Every single thing is how I feel right now. Except that I would have a girlfriend instead. Im just so lost. For 2 years now I have been struggling with everything. I’ve even attempted suicide 5 times. Hospitalized 2 of the 5. I just want you to know…. on those days that life is bearable, actually wonderful, I hope with every fiber of my being that someone else out there can feel what I feel.I wish someone would come out of that dark hole and share everything with me. If you want to to talk im here.