Hello to anyone reading this. My name is Bran, and this is my story.
Back in December of 2008 I attempted to commit suicide by overdosing. Obviously, I failed. Â A month later, my uncle passed away in a boating accident. I felt like I was being punished for what I was trying to do.
Lots of things happened in between. Quite a few bad ones, actually. I won’t get into it here.
Two months ago, my grandfather passed away. I really can’t live without him. Every day is such a struggle and I have no clue what to do. I am looking at suicide as the answer from all this pain that I am feeling. Please do not give me the “you are seeking relief, not death” talk, because I have heard that before, and I know that I am not seeking relief. I am really seeking death. That is what I want.
So, here I am, sharing this with you because I need to know if my method is going to be good. I want to use gas, but I don’t know how much or what kind. Carbon monoxide is obviously a good choice, but it is hard to obtain in bulk, and my truck is from 2007. 2007 was the year that cars were required to produce lower emissions, so it wouldn’t work with my truck. I was thinking helium, but as that is not poisonous, I would need more than CO. Does anyone know approximately how much I will need? I’ve looked for the answer, but couldn’t find it. Would gas from a gas heater (I don’t even know what kind of gas those use) work? And, again, how much?
If anyone has any other practical methods that I could use, I would appreciate that input as well. Thanks.
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Yh …many ppl here are goin for the helium method…im goin for a drug OD….how did ur OD fail?
I won’t tell you how to do it.But 5 gulps of helium in a confined space is all you need to go into a coma,and with a bag over your head you are brown bread
Not to burst your bubble, but you will still have the pain and confusion you’re carrying now when you cross over. It is painful but easier to address your issues and pain now while in a human body. All the research is out there to support what I’m saying. If not, I’d say…hey…relieve yourself. Just have your best interests at heart. Best to have all the info, all the facts before making the leap. Take care.
“Talking” to the dead, crystal balls, tarot cards … not research. Lol.
Yeah, I agree with dylan. I don’t really believe in an afterlife or any of that stuff.
My OD failed because I was stupid enough to tell someone I was going to do it. This time, I won’t make that mistake.
I need to make sure that I have enough helium to die. It is the easiest readily available gas. I would *much* rather have the carbon monoxide though.
Also, I would use drugs like heroin or whatever if I only knew where to find them! Can’t exactly google where your local drug dealers are lol
im thinkin abt talkin 12 ecstacy pills…
It all happens on the pills people use for an OD. I have OD’d twice and I can say they have been the most horrific experiences in my life. And was told that if I had taken a few more I may have died from liver failure causing one of the most slow painful herrendous deaths you could imagine. I think that if I was ti kill myself when the time comes I would hang myself, using the dead hang method, whereby the length of the drop kills you instantly breaking your neck rather dying through choking.
I wish I new a sure fire way. But I have yet to find one. I admit I am a wussy and don’t want to hurt just pass in to nothingness. I hope for it everyday that I just won’t wake up in the morning. I hope you find what you need.
EVERYONE, WHY DO YOU DO THIS TO YOURSELF?
Fucking, I love you all.. I already miss you although I don’t know you.
And you who made this threat, you feel bad because your grandfather passed away. Your parents and friends and family will feel the same about you, do you really want to give them this pain as well? Keep your head up, you deserve life. And I know you told me not to write this, but please, please. Don’t do suicide, and don’t make things worse than it already is. In the future you’ll get better, I promise.