So its 1:40 AM here.  I went to bed at 8:30 and now I can’t sleep. The thoughts are racing through my head. All bad.
Not sure why I am here. I feel like I have reached the end. I guess I have reached it.  I think I am doing well and then boom. Chopped DOWN again and again and again. I think this must be the final straw. I guess Ive been dying for years. I tried to reach out, but now one wants to halp me.  I am thinking its the end. I cannot live like this anymore. The pressure has finally gotten to me. I dont want to do it, but I have to.   The pain is too much. I will miss my family and I will miss my wife. I wanted to see my kids grow up, but I dont want them to see me as the failure that I am.
I GIVE UP. I have to find a way out.
The problem is that I don’t even have the guts go kill myself.  I wish I could just pass away in my sleep and it would all be over.
I cannot take this pressure anymore.
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yea it’s worse than life sucks when I have been in your same place many many times in my life. Then being angry when I am still alive after trying to kill myself a few times & here I sit in the hospital again. if you want to chat to blow off your shit I’m opened to listen icantdoit
I’m just sitting here home alone as usual wide awake DazedRay52 on Yahoo IM
I’m just another suicidal member here
Thanks Ray,
Just saw your post. Slept a little on the couch. Now I am at work. Work is most of the reason for my problems, so it is difficult being here. But thanks for the offer.
I feel the same, but somehow am doing it. It ain’t pretty but I’m doing it. What would happen if you directed your energy towards telling yourself you can do it. Not preaching at you, in actuality we all co-create our reality with what we focus on and I get that it’s brutal. Shifting your approach and perspective, you may be embarking on a way that makes things in general a little lighter for you. Just a thought. All the best.
I’m sorry mate..Everone is tired…Many people here can’t keep on livin like this….The sufferin is too much…The pain is too much….I wish the same thing…I wish i could die in ma sleep…My health is bad enough of already…I have anemia…Many times i wish i would cuz of that…I wished i’d die of some bad disease…But it wont happen…I wish someone would grant your wish if thats what you truly want…You have a wife so why dont you talk it out with her…Why are you suffering so much…Have a talk with her…maybe she might help…Feel free to share your story if you wanna…