What is all about.Please tell me.
9-5
Girlfriend
house
marriage
kids
and live happily after.
Is that it? or is it just fantasy.Society would have us believe so.Have I done something wrong coz my life hasn’t planned out like that.Has yours
No, that’s my life so far
Bullied as a kid
Neglected and lonely ASCAP teenager
Married
Abused by husband
Two kids
Divorce
No alimonie, too much work, difficult son
New love
New career dream
Secon husband
Depression
Divorce
Career ruined
No money
No job
….
My future?
…
Hang in for two or three more years until kids have moved out.
Happiest day of my life when I finally can die
tried the 9-5 many many years ago until the medical community agreed I was not able & were amazed I had accomplished what I had being born screwed from the gate. So all those other things u mentioned where just fantasies because I was unable & yet they say I don’t have the right to die to end my suffering nightmare
I’m extremely stubborn & my Final Exit is drawing nearer as I prepare for final true rest that I can not get here while drawing breaths of air
I’ll do as I want Fook them who say no to me
Yeah, I am sick and tired of therapists telling me it’s so wrong to commit suicide. I accept that, now while my kids still live with me, and they have no other family, now it’s still wrong. But once I am on my own!!! My wish to die is as real as anybody elses wish to live, and as strong, and as valid. I don’t know how long I have to wait, but eventually I will kill myself, and I will be happy about it on that day, and not feel guilty.
@dazedRay. I know what you mean with screwed from the fate, I was not exactly abused as a kid, but brought up to expect it. And all my life I always had to work double or triple hard as most other people, yet still stayed poor and whatever I may achieve crumbles to dust the next minute.
I am highly intelligent, heck I am a Mensa member, but I cannot find happiness or peace or safety or love, or even just stability. Screwed from the gate, somehow just not made for life.
if God truly exist, did He plan all the sufferings…for His own purpose (whatever that is)?
or, God is simply just a mere ‘safety concept’ created when you STILL have some Hope to cling for,
but once you don’t have ANY more hope, then that concept of God suddenly become an ‘evil God’ that you’d rather *not* believe in such kind of sadistic God?..
what’s the use of praying and repeatedly chanting “God please help me…please…pleasee” when He actually planned for you to endure all those pains & sufferings for the rest of your life?
can you imagine a God saying like this “my dear son/daughter, I love you so much, but this is a lot for your life that I have reserved, it is meant so you can always suffer much more than other people for the rest of your life,..for My Purpose, oh my dear son/daughter…and I love you”
That’s the cliched western prototype for a life, I guess, but you are rarely going to find people out there who have that exact template for their existence. I don’t think anyone really plans life out to that degree of simplicity–we all want our own little things when it comes down to relationships, careers, etc.
One thing we should all remember is that we have a good amount of control over our lives–not complete control, but a good amount. If there is something are several things that aren’t working out, 90% of the time they are things that can be dealt with.
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No, that’s my life so far
Bullied as a kid
Neglected and lonely ASCAP teenager
Married
Abused by husband
Two kids
Divorce
No alimonie, too much work, difficult son
New love
New career dream
Secon husband
Depression
Divorce
Career ruined
No money
No job
….
My future?
…
Hang in for two or three more years until kids have moved out.
Happiest day of my life when I finally can die
tried the 9-5 many many years ago until the medical community agreed I was not able & were amazed I had accomplished what I had being born screwed from the gate. So all those other things u mentioned where just fantasies because I was unable & yet they say I don’t have the right to die to end my suffering nightmare
I’m extremely stubborn & my Final Exit is drawing nearer as I prepare for final true rest that I can not get here while drawing breaths of air
I’ll do as I want Fook them who say no to me
Yeah, I am sick and tired of therapists telling me it’s so wrong to commit suicide. I accept that, now while my kids still live with me, and they have no other family, now it’s still wrong. But once I am on my own!!! My wish to die is as real as anybody elses wish to live, and as strong, and as valid. I don’t know how long I have to wait, but eventually I will kill myself, and I will be happy about it on that day, and not feel guilty.
@dazedRay. I know what you mean with screwed from the fate, I was not exactly abused as a kid, but brought up to expect it. And all my life I always had to work double or triple hard as most other people, yet still stayed poor and whatever I may achieve crumbles to dust the next minute.
I am highly intelligent, heck I am a Mensa member, but I cannot find happiness or peace or safety or love, or even just stability. Screwed from the gate, somehow just not made for life.
if God truly exist, did He plan all the sufferings…for His own purpose (whatever that is)?
or, God is simply just a mere ‘safety concept’ created when you STILL have some Hope to cling for,
but once you don’t have ANY more hope, then that concept of God suddenly become an ‘evil God’ that you’d rather *not* believe in such kind of sadistic God?..
what’s the use of praying and repeatedly chanting “God please help me…please…pleasee” when He actually planned for you to endure all those pains & sufferings for the rest of your life?
can you imagine a God saying like this “my dear son/daughter, I love you so much, but this is a lot for your life that I have reserved, it is meant so you can always suffer much more than other people for the rest of your life,..for My Purpose, oh my dear son/daughter…and I love you”
That’s the plan. I don’t know why though because so few people live up to that. It’s really unrealistic.
God is an asshole. Plain and simple.
That’s the cliched western prototype for a life, I guess, but you are rarely going to find people out there who have that exact template for their existence. I don’t think anyone really plans life out to that degree of simplicity–we all want our own little things when it comes down to relationships, careers, etc.
One thing we should all remember is that we have a good amount of control over our lives–not complete control, but a good amount. If there is something are several things that aren’t working out, 90% of the time they are things that can be dealt with.