I’m new here but it’s not my first time thinking about dying. I’ve been going through a lot of family problems mainly since my mother is quick-tempered and I always make her yell when I disobey her. It’s been a rough 2 years of constant yelling. My mother has threatened to kick me out multiple times but she’s serious about me leaving in June with my father. It’s a long story how my grades are dropping and I’m just stressed about the future. My parents will get a divorce in June if things keep going on. I know that it’s because of me. I would run away if I had a place to go, but I don’t want to bother other people. I would be dead by now if I weren’t scared of pain. I wish I would get into some accident that was instant death. Or I wish I could go somewhere else and just live life but I don’t have too much money or anything. If I weren’t here, my parents could live better with my sister. I know it. I cause them so much pain and I’m such a disappointment to them. My father is convinced that I’m going to a community college. It’s really depressing but I guess I’m just posting this to rant maybe. Or find some solutions. I don’t want to live anymore. And I wish a happy birthday to deepabyss, but I doubt they would read this.