I hate wallowing in my sorrow and self-pity all day long.
Isolation is not good for me. I should meet some friends but I have no friends only collegues and I hate them all anyway. I know I should go out and socialize but I don’t know how that works.
I watched TV and all the people are happy and the world is alrithg. But it’s just fake and hypocritical.
I look out of the window. I want to go outside and enjoy the sunshine. But I won’t. I never do.
I’m just sitting here being boring and pathetic. I’m too tired and lack motivation to do anything.
I’ll take a shower I think. For the third time today. At least it’s calming.
I feel I don’t belong here. All I do is wasting space with whining around. Time to die.
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You don’t have to waste space. You can do something with your life.
Like you, I also sit in my room all day long. I do nothing but staring at walls or my laptop. I should have got out of my room and socialized just like other girls my age, but I feel so drained and lifeless. I have no motivation or passion for that. I feel like I’m dying on the inside…
@lostsoul49 me too. How old are you? Are you the one thats from New Zealand?
@will
I know I can. Question is what. I’m not eager to walk in the line like everybody else, to live a life just that it is lived. It’s too illusory.
@lostsoul
there, that’s it. “Dying inside”. It’s like getting drained. Soon there won’t be much left. I feel I have to end it as long as I’m still able to.