im sittin here all alone.. broke, down, and depressed. im tired.. tired of fighting for the lost cause that is me. almost everyone is telling me im nothing and im useless and they dont want me around. but there is one person saying they want me to be stay. and that is kaylee she is the love of my life… but. she is so far away and it kills me that i cant hold her in my arms.. and now she is pushing me away and i know that’s how she is cause she has been hurt so much trust me i know im the same way everyday my mind is tellin me to push her away before i hurt myself or her……. so i wonder wat i should do sit here and keep fighting for myself so i can be with her, or end this sorry p.o.s that is me… everything in me says pick up them pills and just pop them all and sleep forever.. but then she pops into my head and i hear her voice say she loves me and she wants to be my wife.. and.. i just cant do it after i hear that.. someone please help me… help me figure out what i should do cause im lost and dont know what to do… i love you kaylee skye foster.. just plz help me
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I’ll tell you what to do austin..
Hold me..
When we meet we’ll be happy and we both know it… I’ve been wanting to give up too austin.. But I can’t do that because of you..
I’m sorry I’m pushing you away… I’m so sorry.. I hate myself for what I do and who I am austin.. I’m sorry.. I should be someone who doesn’t hurt you.. I know..
baby i dont want you to change :/ i know how it feels pushing someone away and not noticing…. and i know we will be happy once i can finally hold you.. its just so far away and it gets harder every day to fight.. just plz let me know ur not givin up on me baby X_X i love you so much more than u could know and.. i… i cant lose you.. cause if i lose you then im gonna lose myself
;3 I haven’t given up yetttt… have i?!!??!
Well if she means that much to you then you’ve just found a reason to live my friend. good luck
she means that and more X_X i.. im just scared i dont wanna hurt her (and not physicality cause i grew up seein that and i anit gonna be it) but ya…
@ my baby 🙂 thats the thing im scared of is yet…