well I just found out my x step father is watching this site for my post -.- (btw I’m typing blind cause I’m using a phone so dnt get pissy wit typo’s) and he is tellin my family about the shit I’m saying well this is to you mother fuckr.. Your the reason I am how I am you think ur so great now cause ur off the drugs well ur not jackass cause we all know ur still doin pills and u think u can go around tellin everyone the knife I used to cut my wrist was the one u bought.. Well ur […]
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TONIGHT. tonight might finally be the fucking night, the one i have dreamed of and prayed for, for so long, today has been worse and worse x-gf sayin she is prego wit my kid car is fallin apart im broke and the love of my life says she wants a *break* GOD I FUCKING LOVE MY LIFE!!! still deciding though… tree (driving into the tree i want to be buried at) pills knife or rope… such great chocies
hey but w.e i still love her even though i was rite 😀 but if i anit around the site wit in the next 2 days im gone.. […]
hmmm……….. same old post about how i hate my life and wat i am… or simply i hate everything i am and i want to end it NOW!! but sadly i cant cause there is someone that holds me back from it >< damn u backtrackinlife.. but w.e i love you with all my heart but maybe once ur over me and dump me like all the rest i will finally get my chance
im just sittin here lookin at the blood run down my arm and i am accually smiling for the first time in 3 days i havnt cut for weeks but i just couldnt take anymore broke my razor for shaving and went to town and im up to 10 😀 and i just keep tellin my self one more cut and ull feel better just a lil deeper and the pain will be gone.. still tryin to figure out how much longer im gonna be on this earth but i guess that all up to her in a way but w.e i love you baby […]
im sittin here all alone.. broke, down, and depressed. im tired.. tired of fighting for the lost cause that is me. almost everyone is telling me im nothing and im useless and they dont want me around. but there is one person saying they want me to be stay. and that is kaylee she is the love of my life… but. she is so far away and it kills me that i cant hold her in my arms.. and now she is pushing me away and i know that’s how she is cause she has been hurt so much trust me i know im the […]
i sit here in the drak.. only light coming from this screen. and im thinkin of wat life has to offer me… and i see nothing.. i screw up anything and everything. and i know im gonna screw up this.. the best thing that ever happend to me.. is her and i know im just gonna mess it up so wats the point in trying anymore cause i just fucked it up i think already :/ soo i think tomorrow on my way to work my jeep might just slide off the road into that big maple tree at 90 and get smashed to bits with me […]
as i sit here in this cold dark room i think of you… and everything i would do for you.. i just drove home at 2 am to talk to you to make you happy again.. and i was drunk off my feet cause iv been havnin a shity week.. iv risked everything i just got back for you 🙂 and im willing to risk my life for you… and idk why but since  you said yes EVERYTHING is turning around for me 🙂 i got a job my car back im makin money and.. im accually happy.. and i know i worry and get jealous […]
As i sat outside after hearin her tell me she loves me it all felt right… then i come back in to hear her on the phone wit another guy and all she does is laugh and giggle and said she cant w8 to go to the park with him and that she loves him :/ she says he is just a friend… but thats wat the last two said and not even a week later they up and left me for them >< and idk if i cant take that pain again.. im thinkin i should just end my life before it happens and […]
this anit a cry for help i just need to vent before i spaz…… everyone around me expects me to perfect but how can i be when they all call me worthless.. they all want me to get my shit stright but how can i when all i can think about is the past. watchin my my get knocked out everyday by my crack head step father and my dad not caring about me all he wanted was to party.. i know my life might not be anywere near as bad as some ppl and i feel bad for them but this is my life […]
Hi i know NONE of u know me but iv wanted to kill myself for years but i finally got over it and anyone who is feeling down and out can talk to me 🙂 i wanna help ppl overcome this just like i did instead of takin the easy way out 😡 so if ur lookin for someone to talk to hit me up 🙂 btw i anit into god or nothin so dont worry bout that shit