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Everything is slowly leaving. My friend is graduating early and this is the last time i would ever see him. I have mood swings which i really hate. First im like okay im doing fine next thing i know im staring at the ground depress. I have a problem even i cant fix on my own. I feel discomfort and scary. I still have a headache and dizziness. I cant take pain killers cause i would like take five maybe seven of them. I know its bad for you but i cant help that. Thats why i stay away from them. I hate food. It makes me fat. i feel really fat and i dont like it. Im just going to lock myself up in my room. Stay away from food and stay away from everything. Im probably going insane for even thinking this. No im probaby insane period. The only thing that would really make me smile for real and not fake is to see my best friend again. v- v