Eat. thats all what i really want to do right now. I dont care if its leftovers and i dont care if its cold. I will fucking eat it. I have a serious problem. I thought i was doing so well, but i guess im not. v- v I thought staying in my room will help, but i guess it didnt work for awhile. i barely ate anything today, so thats a good start i guess. Im trying to lose weight. and even if i do i would never be happy about my weight, NEVER. I been thinking about killing myself by drowning. It seems like the best way to do…
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You should talk to someone about how you are feeling. That can really help. They can help you accept your weight, no matter what it is.
def. dont ever drown urself thats the worst way to die, and 2 dont do it at all i know how you feel trust me i know and its an awful awful awful feeling but thats why we gotta stick together cause we know how each other feels, please eat but eat little by little so u think ur eating so much but ur not ya know, w/e weight is healthy and w/e is good, e-mail me im here mkafan12@yahoo.com
:/ like anyone would help. hell i have fruit punch next to me and im scary if i drink it i would throw it up cause im not feeling to well :/
What matters more is if you accept your weight. I used to starve myself really bad a few years back. Never ate or drank anything but tea and water. Got only to about 108lbs. Nowadays my weight doesn’t bother me as much. Yeah, it was a vanity thing to me back then but being healthy was more important although I sure as hell would like to fit in my skinny pants again.
Take care SuicideKillMe.
but i cant even if i try i cant. all i see is an overweight girl. Yesterday i couldnt bare to eat much. I got sick just for eating breakfast and now im afraid to drink my juice. nothing is wrong with it but if i do drink it i would probably throw it back up and never drink it again. I cant bare to eat or drink anything.
Oh that is bothersome. I’m not sure how I can help you. I’m not even sure how I helped myself get past the weight issue. Gah! I’m useless.
But here – it’s the lyrics to a song that kinda helped me out of that self dug hole. It’s by Otep from the album “the_ascension”.
“Perfectly Flawed”
If you do this
If you do this you’ll never have a chance to try again.
If you do this you’ll never have a chance to try.
It’s the same sound
Same sting.
The same collapse
Of every thing.
It’s the same slice,
Same blade,
The same lie,
Same ol’ vein
My weight
My face
My height
My race
I’m a mistake.
My weight
My face
My height
My race
I’m such a disgrace.
You’re perfectly flawed
You’re perfectly incomplete
Like cracks in the glass
And faded photographs
You’re perfectly flawed
You’re perfectly incomplete
Let them condemn
Imperfections will keep you unique
Nothing left to lose, just try again
Nothing left to lose, just try again
Its the same doubt,
The same dream
It’s the same sabotage
Cause I’m the enemy
It’s the same night
Same day
It’s the same parasite,
Feeding on the betrayed.
My weight
My face
My height
My race
I’m a mistake
My weight
My face
My height
My race
I’m such a disgrace
You’re perfectly flawed
You’re perfectly incomplete
Like cracks in the glass
And faded photographs
You’re perfectly flawed
You’re perfectly incomplete
A work in progress
Imperfections will keep you unique
A disguise of self-deception
Hides my secrets perfectly
I’m rejecting my reflection
‘Cause I hate the way it judges me
Don’t you do it
You’re not even you yet
Don’t you do it
You’re not even you yet
You’re perfectly flawed
You’re perfectly incomplete
Like cracks in the glass
And faded photographs
You’re perfectly flawed
You’re perfectly incomplete
A work in Imperfections will keep you unique
—
Oops. 😛 The last part was meant to be:
“A work in progress
Imperfections will keep you unique
Hello
Well, I am confused at reading. I dont know if you are actualy overweight, or is it that you are suffering from anorexia and you see yourself as overweight. In any case, those are quite delicate things and by all means you need the guidance of an expert in the field.
As per your liquids and vomiting, well, there are pills that you can take which supress the reflex of vomiting, so you will not vomit. If you think you are going to vomit the pill they can put a little injection in the bum, it does not hurt and you will not have nausea, you will not vomit.
Also, if the issue is that you are anorexic and very skinny, do prepare yourself liquids but which are highly nutritious and drink them with a straw, little by little. If they shoot you that injection in the bum you will not vomit and by drinking hyperproteinic and carboyhdrates liquids, you can gain the weight you need.
Like I said, I am not sure which of the problems is. But I am sure both of the problems have solutions.
Hugs
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Hey SKM, I thought I’d chime in because I have (what some might call) an eating disorder, and I also have an obsession with suicide by drowning. Wondering if there’s some weird link.
About the food thing… are you able to drink water? If so, try adding a little orange juice… nothing too sweet coz the sugar might make you feel nauseous. Work your way to a full glass of OJ, and then try tomato juice or something heavier (again, I’d say stay away from the sugary stuff).
I’ve done a bunch of starvation experiments on myself, and that’s always how I ease back into eating. A “juice fast” is actually a healthy thing to do, if you do it right.
Here’s a question for you… you mentioned you think you’re overweight. What do you think of building up some muscle? Muscle is really cool because it actually helps burn fat. Are you able to workout or go running? It might also help get your digestive system in order.
i cant tell you what to do but ive been in that situation i didnt eat for like 3 months i just ate enough infort of my family but went straight and made myself puck it up eventually i got bulima wich really sucks even when you want to eat you cant because your body rejects it and then your body starts basically eating it self after awhile. i dnt want you to have to go threw that so it probley best if you eat a little everyday just eating dont make you fat just over eating