I thought I had a great time on Saturday. I was out with a lot of friends, having a ton of fun. It was pretty much perfect. However, I disregarded a promise and was sorry for it earlier in the day. Later at night, the girl who I told I couldn’t hang out with said it was really important and that she wanted that day for new memories. Good memories. Now me and her were like family. I felt so bad after she told me why it was so important, and I said sorry so many countless times. It wasn’t enough to her.
Then she told me to never talk to her. Ever again. And so far it’s eating at me.
Then today, things got worse. I’ve been in the worst pain in my life, no one is there for me. My friend who I think is super cool is off doing stupid shit with a person I hate, and I just broke today. All of this stuff is just coming down, making me feel worse.
Few minutes of self-reflecting later, I decided it was just it. I wrote a (super terrible) suicide note, and couldn’t stop crying the whole time, especially when talking about my brother. I felt so bad. But I feel it’s right.
I dunno what to do anymore. The only one person keeping me here is the only one who actually cares about me, because me and him are like brothers.
1 comment
awww :C