I fight too damn much.
The problem is that I still haven’t found a time when I don’t have to fight…
My life is a battlefield.
I fight to wake up, I fight to get my self out of my house, I fight to get myself to class…
I can barely ever remember a time when I wasn’t fighting…
Sometimes I want to just put my weapon down.
I want to take a break from the battle…
I mean, even a soldier gets a break from time to time.
I smile at people because I don’t want them to worry
Because worry won’t help me
I wake up tired
I go to sleep tired
I live tired
But I still fight
Because… I still haven’t found a way to stop fighting. >.<“
4 comments
For which you fight more?Are you a student?but one thing we know ,the fight continues till we die
the fighting never stops…. I’m not even sure it will end when we die…. but I do have that hope… you have to fight to live, and you have to fight to die…. it never stops….. the only thing that happens is what you’ve said… you end up tired…. a tired that can’t be explained…. more than exhausted…. I understand…. believe me…. I am tired too…..
I’m with you guys. Sick of fighting. There was a brief time in my life when I could just lie on my back & look at the sky & not worry. I’ll never get that back. Life has become a fight to the death. Thanks for posting this, TTHO.
find someone you can be real with–preferably a very good therapist for starters.