there are billions of people in the world and i still feel so alone. my mom, the one person supposed to love me, my own flesh and blood, hates me. no this is not an exageration if anything an understatment. she has abused me since i was 6 years old physically, emotionally and sexually. she hit me, kicked me, threw things, beat me with extension cords, drowned me in the bath tub, suffocated me with plastic bags, stuck her fingers into my vagina with hot sauce, did so many things but thats not even the hard part. growing up like that you can take the physical pain, its the emotional pain the eats you alive. i just finally got out of her household. but the pain doesnt end. i started cutting myself when i was 9 years old, people say that doesnt make sense, it doesnt, how does a 9 year old know how to do that? who knows, but it helped. i cut so i can relax to sleep at night, i cut when my past is overwhelming my future. i cut for everything, it iis truley an addiction. people who dont cut, dont understand.
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people who cut also leaves scars i know cause i used to do it and i still have them today :c
Yes i have alot of them, it kinda sucks :/ im working on stopping though, and have gotten alot better!
Hey I don’t cut and I understand. Except I choke myself instead kinda a habit, but I stopped sort of…