He loved me. He told me I was beautiful, smart, fun, and that he wanted to be with me forever. He made my heart feel warm inside, I could have lit up the whole world. Then he told me it wasn’t meant to be. My heart felt as cold as ice. I had been traumatized. now all that’s left inside me is emptiness. what did I do wrong? did I say something? why do I have to hurt so much…I lie awake every night crying out a storm, wondering what I did or said. I used to cut my wrist just to feel the pain. There’s not a day that passes when I don’t long for death, as I try to get through the day. maybe someday someone will seize my affliction and pull me out of this dark, lonely pit I’m stuck in. he left me here without a goodbye. deep inside I’m falling apart, committing suicide will take away the pain, without a doubt. no one needs me, I have no purpose here anymore. if I live past 16, I’ll be so happy, but I get more depressed every day. now I’m mentally disturbed, along with anxiety attacks sometimes. I dream that one day someone will love me the way I am, even if it’s in this stupid depression state I’m in. I just want someone to hold me and take away all this pain inside me…:(
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Would you be willing to talk more about it with me? We can try here or twoinone233@yahoo.ca
i know that empty feeling. When i got broken up with the guy i love i felt mine heart drop. It was that bad, I cry and was just thinking to swollow a whole bunch of pills although i swollow nine. I know i loved him to not leave him. I miss him terrible, I know i could let no one fill mine heart. Its still shatter today. But i have someone else and he loves me and i love him. Although mine heart cant accept it but i know i accept it and his love.
well I’m glad there’s someone who at least loves you and you love him. I know that must be hard, I don’t have anyone anymore in my life, no one here for me, just waiting I guess. I’m just an empty soul, maybe someone will be able to put my heart back together and make it whole, and rid me of this loneliness.
i know you will i will even root for you if i have too C:
aw, thank you:)
no problem n. n
Breakups are hard. No denying that. You say you aren’t 16 yet, keep trying.
I really hope that when you say that you just need someone to pull you out and hold you and care about you; that it’ll work.
It’s when you have someone who cares, and you still feel that way, that things seem really hopeless.
actually I’m exactly 16, I meant if I reach 17. and we were never together, its really complicated, but we acted like we were a married couple, and we both meant it. he NEVER got mad at me, even if I got mad at him, but one day he basically said he doesn’t love me anymore, my heart is still broken with needles sticking through it.