i have nothing left. i’ve been trying for so freakin long and i fail at everything. every decision i make is wrong. i feel empty inside. my heart alternates between being made of stone and just pain. if i could only just die. i used to be so full of life. i wish my heart would stop. i am nothing, i just take up space. i have kids, but i have nothing left for them. maybe they would be better off without me. they don’t want to live with their dad. that’s where they will end up though. they are the only reason i’m not dead. why oh why does God keep my heart beating.
I heard the world will be ending Dec 12, 2012. if i can just hold out til then. i have nothing left to give and i hope everytime i goto sleep that i will not wake. i fantasize all the time about being dead, about… what if i drove the van off the cliff, or flipped it going 90. what if i ‘accidentally’ stepped off the curb.
but i don’t want to go to hell.
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You are one amazing person your kids love you very much , you may get in fights but you just have to show them who has power <3 you are an amazing father ! Happy Fathers day ! <333