still the same ol shit

I posted a few months ago on how bad my anxiety and paranoia  is.. Oh and all my health issues too. I still barely get out the house and i still barely talk to people like my friends. I’ll never be able to get a job like this and i’ll have to get on disability government checks which i dont wanna do cuz i’ll feel like a straight up bum not that i dont already feel like one.. And all my friends will proly think im a bum too.. Who knows what kind of rumors have been goin around about me givin the fact that i’ve fallen offf the face of the earth for the past couple months and been avoiding facebook… Also wanna say i read almost every post on here and i just wanna say u r all a bunch of amazing artistic people. Kinda funny how all the deep thinkers and artisticly inclined people are always the suicidal ones huh.. hmmmm