so there’s my brothers graduation party goin on now and my whole family is over.. i hate it cuz everyone has sumthin good to talk about, how they’re doin good in sports and goin to college and working ect ect.. so what am i supposed to talk about? how depressed i am? how i think differently from all of them? how i dont just go with the flow and be a mindless drone like 90 percent of the people in this world.. when my family ask me whats goin on i mostly just respond by sayin ” nothing much” cuz i dont know what else […]
Bones
Demons keep schemin to keep my mind lesioned and bleedin, so im constantly tweakin as i keep breathin the weed in, all the ***** pills weed and drinks in the world couldnt help, when im asleep im dreamin of heaven, when im awake im in hell
So my family went on vacation this weekend and i decided to stay behind.. My options were to go for a suicide attempt or try to make the best out of being away from my family for a change and make some fun out of it..
So i decided to make the best out of it and invite some old buddies that i knew for most of my life to stay over and have some good times n get fucked up.. Even tho i was filled with anxiety the whole time (even while having benzodiazepines in my system the whole time) i managed to enjoy myself. […]
My family is goin on vacation this friday for 3 days which is my vacation AWAY from them, so i’ll have the house to myself. Hmmm, very tempting to go for an attempt.
Im thinking a mixture of codeine and alcohol. U think it would work? Im talkin like maybe around 500 miligrams of codeine…
I posted a few months ago on how bad my anxiety and paranoia is.. Oh and all my health issues too. I still barely get out the house and i still barely talk to people like my friends. I’ll never be able to get a job like this and i’ll have to get on disability government checks which i dont wanna do cuz i’ll feel like a straight up bum not that i dont already feel like one.. And all my friends will proly think im a bum too.. Who knows what kind of rumors have been goin around about me givin the fact that i’ve […]
Hello everyone. I posted on this site a few years ago under a different name and after reading your guys posts recently, I decided to post a lil bit about my life. For the past couple months i’ve been feelin extremely suicidal, like if I had a gun in my house or had easy access to a gun I woulda blew my brains out a long fucking time ago!! I’m on edge and extremely paranoid.. Paranoid about what?? I DONT FUCKING KNOW. Just in general. I ignore most of my friends phone calls because of my paranoia and barely leave my parents house and im a […]