Who i am…

I hate myself
i hate myself
i hate myself.
I feel hot tears
falling from my eyes.
I dont even know why i was crying
it just suddenly fall.
I cant controll myself.
I have someone who loves me
but it hurts for some reason
everything is fine no fighting no nothing.
But why am i hurt
I hate my life
I get frighten over the littlest things
i shake
and i feel like breaking down.
No one understands me
no one knows what im going through
they think im fine but obviously im not
im not im not im not
why can’t i swallow a bunch of pills
and call it a day.
Why can’t i drown myself
and never wake up.
I dont even know who i am
anymore… i just dont.
Telling people this makes me think
why? why am i suffering
why am i hurting myself
I feel so alone
I dont know whats wrong with me
I hear and see things that arent there
Did i finally lose sanity?
Am i trap in a very small box
that i cant breath.
Whats wrong with me?
What is really wrong with me.