Yeah, in the moment that is all I want. I found this site through this frase. It’s funny that it’s so difficult to encounter anything related with suicide on the internet. I mean, I search a lot, for a long time now, and the suicide as a subject is really a taboo. Maybe, no, I know this, my opinion is different of everyone else. For me, suicide is a right to a human being, I mean, your life is miserable and you don’t want that, so what’s that you wanna kill yourself. Is your right because is your life. Disregarding all religions crap, yeah you’ll burn in hell, ou you’ll come back a ant, etc. Why other people are always so sensitive when becomes suicide? I mean, people die everyday, you know? It’s the cicle of life. I can be hit by a truck anytime, or be killed, or anything worse.
I don’t see this like a encouragement for all of you to take your owns lifes, I’m not saying “ohhh you just should go die!” But if you want it, you should at least know how, and in the painless way. Of course this text is not a get your method suicidal here. So, I’ll not discuss methods.
I have the suspicius that half of this site may be fake, and of what I read so far here, people have brokenhearts, and then resolve to comitt or atempt suicide. I’m not like that. I don’t have a broken heart. Yes, my family is dysfunctional, but that is not the reason. I’m socially awkward, I’m not rich, and I’m not a pretty person, but that it’s not the motive too. I just don’t have the guts to live, or the desire that I see on people around me. And that’s it’s not a fase, I am the way I am for 25 years.
So why I’m writing here? I don’t Know. I’m sorry for the time you lost reading this. And I’m sorry for my poor english.
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everyone has there reasons…some may be petty more than others…but one thing i learned from this site is that it makes me feel im not completely alone..though my thoughts of ending things are still there….ive been going through it for 11 years…not as much as you…but i understand somewhat what u feel.