I Told…

My friend knew that i want to kill myself.And i know he wants to do the same. He made me promise to not kill myself which my stupid self agree too. Today we were talking about birthdays and junk. Then i told him and all the other people who was there;” I want to be like William Shakespeare. Die on my birthday.” One of them laugh thinking it was some kind of joke when i was being serious then i came out and said.”Im thinking of ending my life on my birthday.” He yell and told me to keep my fucking promise. But i just dont know anymore. Everything will fall and i would have nothing else to live for. Then he told me if i do it he would never forgive me never…. I guess people take it too hard. But im falling harder…. :/