I dont know what i should do. I want to kill myself, but my best friend has somewhat delayed it. For when shes telleing me not to do it, i am unable to concentrate and plan out how im going to kill myself. I want to kill myself very badly but i cant decide what to do. I could kill myself, end the pain, but i will leave my best and only friend in this horrible world, making her life worse that it already is. Or i could stay and prolong my suffering, but it could also lessen hers. Do i leave this world and my best friend? Or do i stay here, still in pain, but at least having someone to comfort me and someone that cares about me. Do i be selfish and leave my best friend here, alone? Or do i put my best friends feelings in front of my own, and stay here? This could be one of the hardest desicions of my life.
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mhm, i mean you have a best friend, do you think she’d be able to help you get through whatever it is you’re going through?
You could be selfish and leave her mentally scarred for life. Here she is worried, hurt, and saddened that she can’t help you in anyway, but by listening to you and trying to keep you alive.
You could stay alive and live through the pain, dull existence of being, and agony of life in order to satisfy her selfish need to keep you near her.
Your decision depends on are you willing to take the consequences of your actions? Will you be selfish or indulge in your friends selfishness? Suicide is a permanent solution for a temporary problem. Either life is so unbearable that causing others to suffer along with you doesn’t matter, then this decision should be easy. If life isn’t then you can continue a bit longer until it is unbearable.
I totally agreed with you until you said its a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Some problems never go away.
Depends on the problem and if you’re willing look at it from a different perspective. Is your friend an important person that effects you greatly or is she someone that you care about but still can live without. If she is important enough to effect you then you shouldn’t just die, but if she isn’t then go ahead and leave.
Im so confused. I have no clue what to do at all
I’m sorry that you are feeling so confused.
May I offer some advice?
Flip sides – what if your friend was considering suicide and she confided in you? How would you feel? What would you want her to do? What would you say to her? How would your life be different if she killed herself?
Your friend is not telling you not to do it, she is BEGGING you not to. She loves you. She cares about your well-being. She is scared and feels helpless. She says No. Listen to her.
Sadly, some problems do stick around forever. But suicide is permenant. You cannot change your mind later, so you might as well hang on for a while and see if things get better.